Chronicles of a Young College Boy

Sunday, January 29, 2006

hey hey....on my second week here...not really getting tht much homesickness attacks this week...not as bad as the first week...but still from time to time i will tink of my family and friends..especially during the walks back from class or at night...well its kinda pathetic when u tink of it...and seriously now i spend more time in the library than in my dorm room...like i said in the previous entry..its peaceful in there...its like being in ur own world... the ppl there don really care wad u do...as long as its quiet... well just to let u noe how i like the place i spend 5 and a haf hours there today....time just sort of pass....not tht i didnt do anything...i did quite a bit of reading....

yesterday went for chinese new year dinner..hahaha..its really fun...well...more of a lot of laughing at some point of time....one of my new friends...sort of says im having my seventeen birthday this march and the rest sort of goes 'wad ??'...im quite used to tht response now...then he ask me..'u hav a choice...whether u treat us for dinner...or we bring u to a stripclub..'....wahahahaha.....then another says 'the age limit for stripclub is 21'...den he sort of goes 'damn'..sort of...hahahahhaa...damn funny sia..then after tht went to cheesecake factory to wait for chinese new year..so thts 12...well i cant emphasize it enuff but its really nice...i mean not only the place but the company too...=)...

well the rest of my time is filled up wif homework man...darn it its a lot...some of my friends said i havent gotten used to it cos its a big jump...well i better get used to it cos im only taking like 14 credits this semester and im plannign to take more next semester...but well i will find a way....=)...

DanieL counted snowflakes at 7:42 PM

Sunday, January 22, 2006

hey hey wads up....been a quite a long first week for me here in milwaukee...been harder than i thought...first problem is probably the friends problem...i always thought its going to b easy making friends here...but its quite wrong...its all different..the culture..the way they do things...how they talked...but some of them is really friendly...the most fortunate thing tht happened to me is definitely the grp of indonesians here...they r such a nice bunch of ppl...and in 3 dinners i ate with them...i got the label 'New Kid'...hahahaha...its quite amusing...cos since the number of indonesians here r not tht many..they all know each other by face and name..so when they see me...'Oh the new kid?'...hahaha...but its kinda nice u noe...its like i find a piece of home when im wif these ppl...its like even when some of them r already working..they can joke abt crazy stuffs tht really make me laugh...they in a way really helped me to fit in easier...the funny thing is tht when im wif them is like im not in milwaukee at all...its like im at home....its a really nice feeling..cos thts exactly the kind of feeling tht i've been yearning for here...to find a piece of home...and they do help keep my feelings away from the homesickness....cos the crazy thing is tht every morning when i wake up...the feeling of homesickness just greets me the moment i opened my eyes..its like i don even hav to tink....

the work here is complicated mans....darn it its soo different from spore...well yea i noe its secondary school and university difference...but damn...for example...the reading is quite an amount...but some of them is quite interesting...like theology...theo is the greek word for God...while logia/c means reflection and consideration...so theology is the study of God or the Christian Doctrine....yea..chim...its teaches u things like how is God revealed to us and everything....well math is quite ok...the teacher quite funny at times....well theology teacher is the craziest one i got....but math is like more conservative...eng not so bad also...4 students only..-_-ll...but probably joining in more....

lol i just found out tht when i stay in my room the homesickness is at its worst....and on the other hand when i spend my time in the library my homesickness is quite lessened...and the library is reaaally nice...it got all these couch ....and bright...real nice...and peaceful...big too...they r probably the reason y i can relax my mind there...its just silence...in my room its quite small..so my mind kinda really just wander..i dunno how tht sort of works but yea it happens...its just nice la...but the downside of it is tht my social skills r suffering...i mean come on...u don get to make many friends if u spend most of ur time in the library....my parents said tht its only the first week..i cant expect myself to b always surrounded by friends...but for me the first week has been like a year...cos its like soooo long....and tinking of the time when i take off seeing all of my friends and mum and jenny is like sooo long time ago...haiz... talk abt stepping outside the comfort boundary heh.....but i got quite a bunch of support here...its the same thing.... 'the hand is always there for u , but its up to u to reach for it.'....

DanieL counted snowflakes at 10:20 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006

hello from milwaukee !...im in the uni dorm now...miss my bedroom a lot...miss a lot of things...family..friends...the day i left is really hard...but after tht experience i found out its a lot eaiser to leave the airport wif ur friends and family there..i was wrong to tink tht it would make it harder...cos its the feeling tht there r ppl back home tht will b there for me...they r all like my support pillars..all of them back home...i just read my bro shen's blog the other day..it says ' we went to the airport and send him off and bid goodbye..he was strong but i noe in his heart, he was weak'..well shen...u got half rite half wrong when u say this...i was strong only bcos i keep telling myself too...and wif God's help too..cos i ask him to make me strong at tht moment...and i cant say im weak at tht moment...cos if i am..i would break down liao...but more or less the feeling at tht moment is like as if my mind is detached from my heart...cos i keep tinking.'how come i don feel as much as i thought'...well the only word tht can explain how i felt at tht moment is tht the heart is passive...im not sure if wad i typed makes sense...but thts generally how i felt...

its just feels nice to hav such a caring grp of family and friends...i tot its some kind of test from God tht he puts me into another place completely new to ..well...make more friends...or test my social skills further..it just sort of give a whole new meaning to the saying 'stepping outside the comfort boundary'....well from the looks of it...its not as easy as i thought...well its true tht the ppl here r more friendly...but its hard to really get close..damn i sound gay...but wad im talking abt is tht its just hard to really get to really speak openly..u noe abt personal stuff and life...its really the thing tht i enjoy in a friendship wif harry..cheryl ..yeos ...and wilson...well wilson is more on the crap side of life..but well...hahahaha..if u r reading this wilson... its for fun..hahahaha...anyway..really...well mayb its just tht i judge too fast on whether i can tok life or not with them...the fact tht everyone is at least 2 yrs older than me doesnt help either...

well...its abt 816 here at night...just wanna say i really miss u guys in spore....

DanieL counted snowflakes at 7:34 PM

Sunday, January 08, 2006

hey....this is going to b the last post i hav in this country and in this room for a year....i dunno wad to say...every single bit of feelings is just cropping here and there....sadness..excitement...fear....well if u can find a word tht generally hav these 3 words together tell me ok...cos even these words r just too vaque....its just too many feelings...now wads crazy is tht im feeling mostly fear...its been like this u noe...the feelings just kept on changing balances.....from fear...to sadness..to excitement...
its just this morning when everything starts to hit on me ...the fact tht im leaving on monday....it havent settled to me yet until tht very moment..when i wake up...it just BAM !..and i go uncomfortable all over...its just called change...i read it somewhere b4....a change is never comfortable....but its neccesary if u want to succeed....well i noe its true...but its just until now tht i just realise its pretty uncomfortable...
well...i really hav to thank everyone arnd me though...without them im telling u...i will not b able to pull this through...friends....cousins...parents...sister(-_-ll)...hahahaha....and my absent but always present heros....akltg...adam khoo...and superman...=)...i draw my strength from u guys...so for tht...thank you.

DanieL counted snowflakes at 10:16 AM