Saturday, May 27, 2006
Hey guys..erm this is actually the second entry this week....the previous entry is actually abt a few hours b4 i write this entry..its below this one right here....hahaha...oh well...i finished the previous entry while im at work ...yea i noe u may ask...'bloggin at work?'...yea well i didnt hav much to do as i mentioned in my previous tht my supervisor also in front of the computer...well usually we will be arnd the building arranging tables and chairs for conferences...vacuuming carpets...lifting and carrying chairs..tables etc...but this is the first time i actually do anything during my shift...seriously..from the time i clocked in at 2:05...to 5:30...im there right in front of the comp..i wrote a blog entry in the first hour or so...then go look at other blogs and blogskins for the rest of the time...heh...anyway im writing this in my friend's house...a lot more condusive environment than back in my dorm room...firstly its bigger (for some reason i don enjoy small rooms at all)...secondly the temperature is nicer...and of course neater...wahahaha...i went to some of my friends' apartment this week...actually its really nice to hav own apartment....i cant wait to get mine actually....firstly..no roommate!!..haha...not tht i don like a roommate..but sometimes its nicer to hav the whole room to urself...u can design it to ur style...buy wadever smell of air freshener u like and all tht stuffs....and believe it or not..its actually cheaper than dorms...dorms i hav to pay like 800plus ....while apartments are abt 600...well yea definitely the food is not as convenient...but i can learn how to cook!..its going to be quite fun actually...and the gd thing of having the whole apartment to urself is tht when u make a big mess theres no need to feel guilty..hehehe....and theres no need to feel like taking a gun to shoot a drunken guy who come badgering into the corridor at 2am in the morning...and since the time i came here i came to enjoy the peace of being in my own world so much tht i bcome quite addicted to it...theres a gd and bad side to it...bad side is tht i bcome more anti-social....gd side is tht i bcome a lot more peaceful wif myself....trust me u hav to do it to actually noe how it feels like...its like theres no one in the world to bother u...the solitary feeling combined with soft music just creates a sense of incredible tranquility...
i started my psychology class this week...quite interesting....i cant really say much abt the course bcos its just been one week...but its going to be busy busy busy......imagine taking 5 tests in 2 weeks...consequtively for 6 weeks...plus a research paper due in the 5th week of class...its pretty lucky its interesting...haha...
this week i thought of one occasion where a friend of mine (girl) said to me..."Daniel dont noe how to treat girls"..well its not to me directly but its kinda behind the back kind of thing...when i heard this..i feel a bit confused..."hmm..i treat girls wif respect...manners...honesty..couple of jokes and a bit of crude humor...all those common sense stuffs...."...then after a while...i kinda realised how dumb tht thought is...i did not realise tht she was talking abt the deeper way of treating a girl...those tht hav to do wif sweet stuffs...then when i think further...i actually am not sure at all how to do this stuffs....for example...when im sec 2 ppl will tell me if i like the girl sms her ..asking her wad is she doing and all...u noe wads my first reaction?...i thought..wont tht sound kinda like i don hav a better thing to do?...yea well i realised tht i tend to bend towards the practical side...to make things worst...i started watching smallville....in smallville usually its portrayed tht a girl and guy will just fall for each other...the guy(clark) will just be there and help the girl(lana) through tough times...then they just got together...i THOUGHT tht can happen in real life....then i kinda TRY to run this in my life....oh well u get the picture of wad will and has happened...then when i come to US...its not tht simple...or at least i tink its not tht simple...i hav to come back to my 2 proffesionals 'date doctors'.....my 2 cousins...and ask them the 'how-to's...this just goes to show tht however much wisdom a person has (oh come on, u hav to admit i do hav wisdom to certain degree..hahahaha)...its just not the same in the romance playing field...its like all the lessons learnt in life...probably half of them is irrelevant to this field...and if u want to put me into this playing field...i would be a bleeding cow in shark-infested water...seriously...i am tht clueless in this field...heh..so i welcome any advices from ppl who r ahead of me in this playing field...=)
I watched X-Men 3 yesterday...a very nice movie...when i watch it right...i keeping hoping tht i could hav one of those powers...its just going to be so awesome...imagine me having a frost ability...when u r drinking something i will just freeze the liquid so tht it will be stuck to ur mouth..whahahaha!...well thts probably y i don hav it...haha..no im just joking....with movie characters which hav...erm...out-of-the-world abilities coming out...some ppl...like me...will keep on imagining wad if we hav those powers...but then i think again and i realised there r some very underated powers tht we human posses....be it good or bad...we human hav the power to hurt ppl emotionally...some r more expert....this power itself..in my opinion..is more powerful than any of those powers exhibited in movies...and the good side...the power to make ppl happy...the power to make ppl laugh...the power to help ppl through tough times...this powers are seriously underrated....haha...i wont be a spoiler and tell u guys the plot of the movie if u havent watch it...but its a really good movie...jam-packed wif action and a bit of humor here and there...=)
hmm...this would probably be the longest length i wrote in one week...this plus the last entry...probably 2000 words or more...heh ok im going to jump into fantasy world now...=)
i started my psychology class this week...quite interesting....i cant really say much abt the course bcos its just been one week...but its going to be busy busy busy......imagine taking 5 tests in 2 weeks...consequtively for 6 weeks...plus a research paper due in the 5th week of class...its pretty lucky its interesting...haha...
this week i thought of one occasion where a friend of mine (girl) said to me..."Daniel dont noe how to treat girls"..well its not to me directly but its kinda behind the back kind of thing...when i heard this..i feel a bit confused..."hmm..i treat girls wif respect...manners...honesty..couple of jokes and a bit of crude humor...all those common sense stuffs...."...then after a while...i kinda realised how dumb tht thought is...i did not realise tht she was talking abt the deeper way of treating a girl...those tht hav to do wif sweet stuffs...then when i think further...i actually am not sure at all how to do this stuffs....for example...when im sec 2 ppl will tell me if i like the girl sms her ..asking her wad is she doing and all...u noe wads my first reaction?...i thought..wont tht sound kinda like i don hav a better thing to do?...yea well i realised tht i tend to bend towards the practical side...to make things worst...i started watching smallville....in smallville usually its portrayed tht a girl and guy will just fall for each other...the guy(clark) will just be there and help the girl(lana) through tough times...then they just got together...i THOUGHT tht can happen in real life....then i kinda TRY to run this in my life....oh well u get the picture of wad will and has happened...then when i come to US...its not tht simple...or at least i tink its not tht simple...i hav to come back to my 2 proffesionals 'date doctors'.....my 2 cousins...and ask them the 'how-to's...this just goes to show tht however much wisdom a person has (oh come on, u hav to admit i do hav wisdom to certain degree..hahahaha)...its just not the same in the romance playing field...its like all the lessons learnt in life...probably half of them is irrelevant to this field...and if u want to put me into this playing field...i would be a bleeding cow in shark-infested water...seriously...i am tht clueless in this field...heh..so i welcome any advices from ppl who r ahead of me in this playing field...=)
I watched X-Men 3 yesterday...a very nice movie...when i watch it right...i keeping hoping tht i could hav one of those powers...its just going to be so awesome...imagine me having a frost ability...when u r drinking something i will just freeze the liquid so tht it will be stuck to ur mouth..whahahaha!...well thts probably y i don hav it...haha..no im just joking....with movie characters which hav...erm...out-of-the-world abilities coming out...some ppl...like me...will keep on imagining wad if we hav those powers...but then i think again and i realised there r some very underated powers tht we human posses....be it good or bad...we human hav the power to hurt ppl emotionally...some r more expert....this power itself..in my opinion..is more powerful than any of those powers exhibited in movies...and the good side...the power to make ppl happy...the power to make ppl laugh...the power to help ppl through tough times...this powers are seriously underrated....haha...i wont be a spoiler and tell u guys the plot of the movie if u havent watch it...but its a really good movie...jam-packed wif action and a bit of humor here and there...=)
hmm...this would probably be the longest length i wrote in one week...this plus the last entry...probably 2000 words or more...heh ok im going to jump into fantasy world now...=)
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 10:40 PM
Guess where am i now...at work!!...wahaha...yea its a saturday during summer and there isnt much to do so im just sitting down here on the comp surfing internet...unless my boss (who is also in front of the computer at the moment) calls me to do some chores....i don hav time to write tonight i tink bcos im going to a friend's place to stay for the night...im going to hav the usual blog entry tmr night...so monday morning spore time...heh
I read an entry in Stuart's blog....its called finding purpose....even though i just read one of the i tink 5 parts of the purpose series...i found 2 words tht immediately jumped out of the passage..."Purpose Changes"...sometimes ppl who r in search of their purpose in the world think that their purpose must be specific...well in my perspective...i tink it doesnt have to be...ok lets take me for an example...after i read the enty and found tht Stuart's purpose is to gain knowledge and share it wif other ppl ...he said it is his purpose bcos he does it best...now i tink to myself...mayb purpose is something u will want to enjoy doing and be good at it...for me i tink its making the people around me happy...i told abt 60 ppl this goal of mine (during advanced camp in akltg.)...well its not exactly it but its kinda related...so for me in order to be living tht particular purpose...i will want set some 'to-do' list....like being a listening ear...helping ppl through hard times...stufs like tht....this is probably the thing tht hav to be a little more specific...if u want to know whether u r living a purpose driven life or not...ask urself this qst..."Is what im doing now helping me achieve the ideal life i want in the future?"....
This actually brings me to my next point...remember this quote from the movie batman begins..."Its not who you r inside, but what you do that makes u who u r"....however much u want to say u r a hardworking person but wad u do everyday is laze arnd..ppl will see u in the lazy image....however u say u r a emotionally stable person but what u do is not creating tht image...ppl will see u in tht not-so-favorable image of u...i noe its not fair...u may say and think..."oh he or she doesnt know me well enuff to know who i am"....but then however much u resent it, ppl will continuously judge u...its this little thing we call reality...i mean ok lets just look at superman...(i take him as an example bcos i analysed wad hes going through)...wad he does is save ppl....tht alone makes him a hero...but after watching smallville...i can see tht deep down he may not be tht perceived image of the man of steel...he is alone...misunderstood at times...hurt bcos of the countless number of time he has to lie tht hurts his image in order to protect tht person.... but he still creates his image as a strong, formidable person whom ppl always can count on...bcos of the things he does...the world is a mirror to us....it reflects who we really r...if ppl arnd u are happy to spend time wif u and enjoy ur company...its a reflection tht says u r a gd person...vice versa...if u don like the reflection u see in the mirror...(metaphor for the way ppl are treating u)..change ur behavior!...For things to change we must change first...like if we want to see the reflection (literally this time) to smile....we cant shout at it or do wadever wif it to make the reflection of ourselves smile right?...wad we can do is change...from inwards...yea just smile...(i noe this may sound like a stupid example...but it states the point)....
heh i tink thts abt all i want to say right now...im going to write another entry tmr night...so for the mean time...gd luck to ppl who r having tests and exams!!...=)
I read an entry in Stuart's blog....its called finding purpose....even though i just read one of the i tink 5 parts of the purpose series...i found 2 words tht immediately jumped out of the passage..."Purpose Changes"...sometimes ppl who r in search of their purpose in the world think that their purpose must be specific...well in my perspective...i tink it doesnt have to be...ok lets take me for an example...after i read the enty and found tht Stuart's purpose is to gain knowledge and share it wif other ppl ...he said it is his purpose bcos he does it best...now i tink to myself...mayb purpose is something u will want to enjoy doing and be good at it...for me i tink its making the people around me happy...i told abt 60 ppl this goal of mine (during advanced camp in akltg.)...well its not exactly it but its kinda related...so for me in order to be living tht particular purpose...i will want set some 'to-do' list....like being a listening ear...helping ppl through hard times...stufs like tht....this is probably the thing tht hav to be a little more specific...if u want to know whether u r living a purpose driven life or not...ask urself this qst..."Is what im doing now helping me achieve the ideal life i want in the future?"....
This actually brings me to my next point...remember this quote from the movie batman begins..."Its not who you r inside, but what you do that makes u who u r"....however much u want to say u r a hardworking person but wad u do everyday is laze arnd..ppl will see u in the lazy image....however u say u r a emotionally stable person but what u do is not creating tht image...ppl will see u in tht not-so-favorable image of u...i noe its not fair...u may say and think..."oh he or she doesnt know me well enuff to know who i am"....but then however much u resent it, ppl will continuously judge u...its this little thing we call reality...i mean ok lets just look at superman...(i take him as an example bcos i analysed wad hes going through)...wad he does is save ppl....tht alone makes him a hero...but after watching smallville...i can see tht deep down he may not be tht perceived image of the man of steel...he is alone...misunderstood at times...hurt bcos of the countless number of time he has to lie tht hurts his image in order to protect tht person.... but he still creates his image as a strong, formidable person whom ppl always can count on...bcos of the things he does...the world is a mirror to us....it reflects who we really r...if ppl arnd u are happy to spend time wif u and enjoy ur company...its a reflection tht says u r a gd person...vice versa...if u don like the reflection u see in the mirror...(metaphor for the way ppl are treating u)..change ur behavior!...For things to change we must change first...like if we want to see the reflection (literally this time) to smile....we cant shout at it or do wadever wif it to make the reflection of ourselves smile right?...wad we can do is change...from inwards...yea just smile...(i noe this may sound like a stupid example...but it states the point)....
heh i tink thts abt all i want to say right now...im going to write another entry tmr night...so for the mean time...gd luck to ppl who r having tests and exams!!...=)
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 2:29 PM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
SUMMER HOLS!!..hahaha...i hav my week of rest....gd food..gd tv...gd games...hahaha...u may ask where do i get gd food...i went to aunt mimi's place...my friends' parents' friend...yea quite a number of apostrophies there..hahaha...but yea she and her husband are really great...i went to stay over at their house for a week and had really a break from the university...then i played a lot of warcraft during tht period...bcos one of my friends had it on his laptop too...so we played together...quite fun....and i actually went shopping!!...can u believe tht?...and after tht shopping trip...i kinda understand women's fascination wif shopping....man i do want to buy a lot of things...well i got 2 jackets...light jackets...very nice...and it was on a very big sale...like 80 bucks to 40 bucks....60 to 15....too good to pass up the chance...hahaha...well for some reason its not hard for me to just pick up and buy...my mindset is always like.."money is always replaceable"...a very very very dangerous mindset...if i go shopping for clearance i hav no idea how much can i spend...but at least since i very amateur shopper my 'comfort zone' of spending money is quite limited...like usually i will feel bad if i buy more than 2 things....unless its necessary... well tmr i planning to spend money again...this time expected to be quite a big amount...i wont tell u how much...but its just big...and again its just 2 things...ipod video and bose headphones...yea..do the math....hahahaha.....i cant wait to get my ipod video...then i can upload all my smallville series into it and watch it wherever i go...like in class for example...wahahaha...just kidding...
"Absence during the long time had been partcularly and inexplicably painful. It was as if something was misplaced- something very valuable- and its loss left a kind of vacancy. Emotions had always been such a jumble that he had never come to grips with them. Usually they changed so rapidly that he never had time to examine before another took place. This yearning sense of something missing, however, had persited for so long that he finally had to face it."
No i didnt compose tht paragraph on top...even though i like to take credit for it..haha..anyway i was kinda wondering...is this wad it feels like to suddenly realise tht u hav feelings for somebody when u leave tht person..like the following paragraph from tht extract is the same thing..like is it love or not...wad i think is that sometimes u need to be away from tht somebody to realise how much u care or just to realise tht u do hav this feelings for the person or not...like when the person is arnd u...u don realise the feeling is there bcos he or she is always there rite...but when the person is gone..for some reason ...as wad the extract said...theres a missing piece there...u cant place a finger onwad it actually is...its either tht or its the fact tht u don want to face the truth...theres really this thing abt the truth...its never the truth until someone believes in it...or tht theory..which may be the truth..is faced...like wad the extract said...the feeling persisted for so long tht he finally had to face it...i got it from a novel im reading now...well actually i read this novel abt 4 yrs ago...just tht when i found the novel in the bookshelf in a bookstore i was so happy tht i found it tht i bought all the series..which comprised of 10 books...but now compressed into 4 beautiful books...yea i mentioned abt this a few months back....
sometimes its just not fair how good things always last so short...and the bad things seems to drag on forever...like now...im dreading each page tht i read bcos i noe tht one day tht page tht i turned will be the final page of the story...i just really dread how damn gd stories always end...thts y if i noe tht i like this particular book...i rather prefer it to be very long..the thicker the book..the better...like the previous harry potter book....im quite disappointed its actually shorter than the previous one....thts y i always do my best to ration my regular reading of the novel...bcos if i don watch myself...i could read 50 pages in one night easily...argh..i just hope the story wont end...heh for some reason something just came to my mind now..."Nobody but you can write your own story."...well i think tht our own story is the only good story tht wont end...its our choice where we want to put our last page...how we want to write our epiloque....how long our story would be....well our parents probably are the authors of our proloque in our lives...but well most probably they wrote a good one...or even if they dont...its up to us to do wadever with the rest of the content of the book...=)....well...im going to sink into fantasy world now with my beloved novel....hav fun writing ur story...=)
"Absence during the long time had been partcularly and inexplicably painful. It was as if something was misplaced- something very valuable- and its loss left a kind of vacancy. Emotions had always been such a jumble that he had never come to grips with them. Usually they changed so rapidly that he never had time to examine before another took place. This yearning sense of something missing, however, had persited for so long that he finally had to face it."
No i didnt compose tht paragraph on top...even though i like to take credit for it..haha..anyway i was kinda wondering...is this wad it feels like to suddenly realise tht u hav feelings for somebody when u leave tht person..like the following paragraph from tht extract is the same thing..like is it love or not...wad i think is that sometimes u need to be away from tht somebody to realise how much u care or just to realise tht u do hav this feelings for the person or not...like when the person is arnd u...u don realise the feeling is there bcos he or she is always there rite...but when the person is gone..for some reason ...as wad the extract said...theres a missing piece there...u cant place a finger onwad it actually is...its either tht or its the fact tht u don want to face the truth...theres really this thing abt the truth...its never the truth until someone believes in it...or tht theory..which may be the truth..is faced...like wad the extract said...the feeling persisted for so long tht he finally had to face it...i got it from a novel im reading now...well actually i read this novel abt 4 yrs ago...just tht when i found the novel in the bookshelf in a bookstore i was so happy tht i found it tht i bought all the series..which comprised of 10 books...but now compressed into 4 beautiful books...yea i mentioned abt this a few months back....
sometimes its just not fair how good things always last so short...and the bad things seems to drag on forever...like now...im dreading each page tht i read bcos i noe tht one day tht page tht i turned will be the final page of the story...i just really dread how damn gd stories always end...thts y if i noe tht i like this particular book...i rather prefer it to be very long..the thicker the book..the better...like the previous harry potter book....im quite disappointed its actually shorter than the previous one....thts y i always do my best to ration my regular reading of the novel...bcos if i don watch myself...i could read 50 pages in one night easily...argh..i just hope the story wont end...heh for some reason something just came to my mind now..."Nobody but you can write your own story."...well i think tht our own story is the only good story tht wont end...its our choice where we want to put our last page...how we want to write our epiloque....how long our story would be....well our parents probably are the authors of our proloque in our lives...but well most probably they wrote a good one...or even if they dont...its up to us to do wadever with the rest of the content of the book...=)....well...im going to sink into fantasy world now with my beloved novel....hav fun writing ur story...=)
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 9:59 PM
Saturday, May 13, 2006
BEER!!..hahahaha...i just came back from a birthday dinner wif my indo friends....they all kinda drank beer....since im the youngest there and naturally be the only one whos drinking lemonade....they kinda persuade me to try a little of beer....a whole bottle actually....its like when i was eating b4 i noe it i got a beer bottle in front of me...its probably abt the size of the smaller tiger beer bottle...but this one more slender....yea well not to be a spoilsport i drank it...i took it slwoly at one time...the feeling is like drinking sprite...but its just bitter...gassy bitter liquid...heh not very tasty...after i put it down for a while they ask me drink again by toasting..hahaha...well in the end i only finished abt till the end of the bottle neck...cant stand the taste...heh....so its ok la...im still not going to drink...since now i already drank beer and wine b4....i havent tried liquor...the guys say i will like liquor since different the taste....bacardi if im not wrong...dunno la...i wont be drinking anytime soon again...haha...
heh then this week i go pack my stuffs in my dorm room cos i moving out..when i taking out all my stuffs...it kinda brings me back to the time when i actually move into my dorm room in january....when i actually think of it...its actually been 6 months..i noe i hav said it in one of my previous post...but isnt it crazy how fast just time flies....its like some of the stuff i put in my drawer i nv take...then when i take out rite...every memory of tht day came rushing back to me...its like some kind of a video ...playing the time when i first came here and everything...its kinda bittersweet...bitter cos for some reason its the first room ever tht i hav complete access to...as in i hold the key....sweet cos im leaving the room also.....heh...cos i cant stand the building after a while...second reason is also the fact tht since time passes so damn fast...it will be soon when i step on sporean soil again....
this kinda brings me to my next point...all this while sometimes i've been kinda thinking...am i a sporean or an indo?...yea theoretically speaking im an indo...buuut....in my perspective i prefer to redefine which country u belong to....or where ur loyalties lie...i feel tht my loyalties lies in the place where i hav something to care for...a place where i feel comfortable in...a place where the people i love stays....and i feel tht the place is more like spore...now don get me wrong...my relatives are all still back in indo....but for me im not comfortable staying in indo...for some reason it just doesnt feel rite....theres no click...im just referring to the place ah...the relatives i hav them mostly in indo...indo for me it just qualifies as the place where the people i love stays....but spore on the other hand...qualifies for 2....where i feel comfortable in and where the people tht i care stays....the loyalties part i still don noe...its like i will describe indo a house...whereas spore a home...i've heard loads of ppl complaining abt the things in spore...but when i come here...it opens my eyes to quite number of things...i used to agree to some of the complaints...but here in the us...lets take taxes for example...when i go wif my friends for dinner tht all probably totalled up to 120 bucks...the taxes is like 20 bucks in total....i noe u will like 'thts bs!'..but thts the way things work here..in spore its like the tax we pay r so minimal for dinners tht its insubstantial....trust me....spore may not b perfect...but its a gd place...anyway i came to think of this a few days ago when i go for work...i got my name tag...it says..." Daniel", "Business Administration- Singapore."...now being an indonesian my mind fires off as..."wait...thts not right"...then as i work...i tink a bit...(yea well cos basically my work doesnt need tht much thinking.)...the appropriate thing is tht im an indonesian...but for some reason...the emotion side tend to tip toward singaporean...its like ... i don even noe how to describe it...u may be in tht position b4..its like ur mind tend to go towards one side while ur feelings go the opposite..
crap...now i don noe wad to write again...i just seen my 'report card'...kinda incomplete...but then so far i got 4 subjects back...eng A-...second eng A...math A-...theology B...now waiting for history...now my gpa is 3.455....if i get a C for history...which is quite possible...i will lose my scholarship....damn damn damn damn......even if i get a B-....my gpa is like 2.97...minimum requirement is 3.0 to keep the scholarship...argh....
heh then this week i go pack my stuffs in my dorm room cos i moving out..when i taking out all my stuffs...it kinda brings me back to the time when i actually move into my dorm room in january....when i actually think of it...its actually been 6 months..i noe i hav said it in one of my previous post...but isnt it crazy how fast just time flies....its like some of the stuff i put in my drawer i nv take...then when i take out rite...every memory of tht day came rushing back to me...its like some kind of a video ...playing the time when i first came here and everything...its kinda bittersweet...bitter cos for some reason its the first room ever tht i hav complete access to...as in i hold the key....sweet cos im leaving the room also.....heh...cos i cant stand the building after a while...second reason is also the fact tht since time passes so damn fast...it will be soon when i step on sporean soil again....
this kinda brings me to my next point...all this while sometimes i've been kinda thinking...am i a sporean or an indo?...yea theoretically speaking im an indo...buuut....in my perspective i prefer to redefine which country u belong to....or where ur loyalties lie...i feel tht my loyalties lies in the place where i hav something to care for...a place where i feel comfortable in...a place where the people i love stays....and i feel tht the place is more like spore...now don get me wrong...my relatives are all still back in indo....but for me im not comfortable staying in indo...for some reason it just doesnt feel rite....theres no click...im just referring to the place ah...the relatives i hav them mostly in indo...indo for me it just qualifies as the place where the people i love stays....but spore on the other hand...qualifies for 2....where i feel comfortable in and where the people tht i care stays....the loyalties part i still don noe...its like i will describe indo a house...whereas spore a home...i've heard loads of ppl complaining abt the things in spore...but when i come here...it opens my eyes to quite number of things...i used to agree to some of the complaints...but here in the us...lets take taxes for example...when i go wif my friends for dinner tht all probably totalled up to 120 bucks...the taxes is like 20 bucks in total....i noe u will like 'thts bs!'..but thts the way things work here..in spore its like the tax we pay r so minimal for dinners tht its insubstantial....trust me....spore may not b perfect...but its a gd place...anyway i came to think of this a few days ago when i go for work...i got my name tag...it says..." Daniel", "Business Administration- Singapore."...now being an indonesian my mind fires off as..."wait...thts not right"...then as i work...i tink a bit...(yea well cos basically my work doesnt need tht much thinking.)...the appropriate thing is tht im an indonesian...but for some reason...the emotion side tend to tip toward singaporean...its like ... i don even noe how to describe it...u may be in tht position b4..its like ur mind tend to go towards one side while ur feelings go the opposite..
crap...now i don noe wad to write again...i just seen my 'report card'...kinda incomplete...but then so far i got 4 subjects back...eng A-...second eng A...math A-...theology B...now waiting for history...now my gpa is 3.455....if i get a C for history...which is quite possible...i will lose my scholarship....damn damn damn damn......even if i get a B-....my gpa is like 2.97...minimum requirement is 3.0 to keep the scholarship...argh....
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 11:17 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
heys ppl....last week of class is done for me now!!...=)..hahaha..but next week all the exams come..ppl keep wanting to kill me for having tuesday as my last day of exams...yea well we all got different schedules for exams cos we take different class..mine coincindentally all finish by tuesday...but then the downside will be having 2 exams on monday...and one on tuesday...heh probably the only reason stopping my friends from drowning me is tht my weekend will be hell..oh well....now im got some time to write blog...so its not tht bad..=)
now its spring here in milwaukee...and its really amazing how beautiful the campus has become...i've been wanting to take photos of the campus...but still cannot find the convenient time yet...but i will probably after my exams...after which i hav to learn how to put pictures into the entry...=)...anyway im going to give u guys a preview by describing it in words..the trees are probably the main ones..u noe how it is in spore the trees if they r green they will just be green...down here they hav different shades of green...light green...dark green...then there was red trees...well they werent actually red but there r soo many flowers in the tree tht it appears red...then there was white...same thing becos of the white flowers...then there was a maple color ones...then there is also pink...its just so beautiful...every single morning i take my time to walk to classes just to enjoy the magnificent color of the trees....beautiful start for the morning...haha...makes me want to take photography class sia....but its really just picturesque...
this week i went for a tkd testing last monday....then we hav a different tester...the grandmaster's son...cool and funny guy....he says during the testing..."ok now i want u guys to do full-contact full-force sparring....the person who knocks the other guy out first will get an A"...then we all look at him like speaking a silent, "Are u serious???"....then he smiled and say "Just kidding."...hahahhaa...then after tht he gave us a talk...he asked us wad kind of characters do u want to see in a friend, leader, employer...we all gave basically the same thing...honesty...confidence...loyalty....responsibility etc...then when all of this is written on the board...he ask us each one of them whether its attitude or skill....and after the exercise ended...every single on of the characteristic on tht board is an attitude or an attitude and a skill...this exercise kinda makes it really clear to me now...now im not saying tht i nv knew this...but its only at this moment tht it brands itself on my mind tht skill without attitude is like a person without his heart...its futile...theres no lifeforce to it...i don noe if i can just find one specific life lesson in mine to illustrate this....but its just very clear somehow...the concept i mean...of how important attitude is in our lives...
heh this week has also been quite a peaceful one for me..mentally i mean...remember the last entry i wrote the last thing i said i got lots on my mind..?...yea the next day after some time i realised why i feel so choked up in my mind the previous night...u see...i've been holding onto something thts well...uncertain...yea i tink thts probably the closest word i can tink of...the outcome of this is just unpredictable and it requires my utmost patience for it...anyway then i recalled these words i read in "Tuesdays with Morrie"...well i cant recall the words exactly..=P..but i noe its a lesson on detachment... its when u r troubled wif something...and u want to push it away and the problem naturally is u cant...so u fill urself up wif it...for example..if u fill sad and cant get rid of it...fill urself up wif it...just make sure u don hurt anyone...u can cry...exercise...read...wadever...then when u r over wif it...u suddenly feel so peaceful...my case its just a realization tht i don hav to be this way (frustrated)...i can just let it go for a while...hav a peace of mind...its like this burden taken off u...=)...theres this heavyness in the heart tht has been lifted off..i hav no idea how to actually say it in words...but its like tht...lightening ur burden of the mind ...and the heart...I tink i have this problem also becos of my tendency to live in my past...the saying "Stop living in your past and start to look in the future" kept on propping in my head everytime i had a dilemma...
this week kinda pinpoint something people may have misunderstandings about goals....a lot of people's answer will be like..." i want to be happy..."..."i want to be rich"..."i want to slim down"..."i want to be more fit"....but there is one problem wif this goal....its not SPECIFIC enuff...its not tangible to the point where u will find a lot of difficulty reaching it...we shld not hav money or happiness for our measurement of either success or wadever goal...bcos there can nv be enuff of it...like who can say they hav enuff money?..mayb bill gates can...but theres only a handfull billionaires who can say tht...and happiness is also another difficult thing....wad we must do to make it tangible is tht we concentrate on something thts related to tht particular goal...like for exmaple if ur goal is to be happy,...then set a goal of spending a specific amount of hours wif ur loved ones or do something tht makes u happy....i don want to sound like im the expert here..cos i still hav difficulty of finding tht thing related to personal finances itself...
heh i found another lesson for parenting...and from the usual source smallville...u noe when clark's dad was in a huge dilemma ..he was like so confused at wad to do tht he told clark.."son, i don noe how to protect u anymore.."...then clark replied an answer so perfect tht its worth to be placed in every son's mind..." Thts not ur job, dad....ur job is to teach me how to protect myself."....when i heard tht again theres some clicking in my mind...its like..hmmm....very very true...this ties in with one of the parenting lesson i posted a few weeks ago...about trusting the child into making his or her own decision...i think the mistake that some parents make is tht they sometimes do not realise tht their child has become old enuff to make their own decision...yea also bcos to them their child seem always young...but its so critical to the child's growth for making his own decision and learn from the mistakes tht if not done...the child wont be able to protect himself when the time comes..the parents' job is to teach their child to build a life...not build it for them....=)...
now its spring here in milwaukee...and its really amazing how beautiful the campus has become...i've been wanting to take photos of the campus...but still cannot find the convenient time yet...but i will probably after my exams...after which i hav to learn how to put pictures into the entry...=)...anyway im going to give u guys a preview by describing it in words..the trees are probably the main ones..u noe how it is in spore the trees if they r green they will just be green...down here they hav different shades of green...light green...dark green...then there was red trees...well they werent actually red but there r soo many flowers in the tree tht it appears red...then there was white...same thing becos of the white flowers...then there was a maple color ones...then there is also pink...its just so beautiful...every single morning i take my time to walk to classes just to enjoy the magnificent color of the trees....beautiful start for the morning...haha...makes me want to take photography class sia....but its really just picturesque...
this week i went for a tkd testing last monday....then we hav a different tester...the grandmaster's son...cool and funny guy....he says during the testing..."ok now i want u guys to do full-contact full-force sparring....the person who knocks the other guy out first will get an A"...then we all look at him like speaking a silent, "Are u serious???"....then he smiled and say "Just kidding."...hahahhaa...then after tht he gave us a talk...he asked us wad kind of characters do u want to see in a friend, leader, employer...we all gave basically the same thing...honesty...confidence...loyalty....responsibility etc...then when all of this is written on the board...he ask us each one of them whether its attitude or skill....and after the exercise ended...every single on of the characteristic on tht board is an attitude or an attitude and a skill...this exercise kinda makes it really clear to me now...now im not saying tht i nv knew this...but its only at this moment tht it brands itself on my mind tht skill without attitude is like a person without his heart...its futile...theres no lifeforce to it...i don noe if i can just find one specific life lesson in mine to illustrate this....but its just very clear somehow...the concept i mean...of how important attitude is in our lives...
heh this week has also been quite a peaceful one for me..mentally i mean...remember the last entry i wrote the last thing i said i got lots on my mind..?...yea the next day after some time i realised why i feel so choked up in my mind the previous night...u see...i've been holding onto something thts well...uncertain...yea i tink thts probably the closest word i can tink of...the outcome of this is just unpredictable and it requires my utmost patience for it...anyway then i recalled these words i read in "Tuesdays with Morrie"...well i cant recall the words exactly..=P..but i noe its a lesson on detachment... its when u r troubled wif something...and u want to push it away and the problem naturally is u cant...so u fill urself up wif it...for example..if u fill sad and cant get rid of it...fill urself up wif it...just make sure u don hurt anyone...u can cry...exercise...read...wadever...then when u r over wif it...u suddenly feel so peaceful...my case its just a realization tht i don hav to be this way (frustrated)...i can just let it go for a while...hav a peace of mind...its like this burden taken off u...=)...theres this heavyness in the heart tht has been lifted off..i hav no idea how to actually say it in words...but its like tht...lightening ur burden of the mind ...and the heart...I tink i have this problem also becos of my tendency to live in my past...the saying "Stop living in your past and start to look in the future" kept on propping in my head everytime i had a dilemma...
this week kinda pinpoint something people may have misunderstandings about goals....a lot of people's answer will be like..." i want to be happy..."..."i want to be rich"..."i want to slim down"..."i want to be more fit"....but there is one problem wif this goal....its not SPECIFIC enuff...its not tangible to the point where u will find a lot of difficulty reaching it...we shld not hav money or happiness for our measurement of either success or wadever goal...bcos there can nv be enuff of it...like who can say they hav enuff money?..mayb bill gates can...but theres only a handfull billionaires who can say tht...and happiness is also another difficult thing....wad we must do to make it tangible is tht we concentrate on something thts related to tht particular goal...like for exmaple if ur goal is to be happy,...then set a goal of spending a specific amount of hours wif ur loved ones or do something tht makes u happy....i don want to sound like im the expert here..cos i still hav difficulty of finding tht thing related to personal finances itself...
heh i found another lesson for parenting...and from the usual source smallville...u noe when clark's dad was in a huge dilemma ..he was like so confused at wad to do tht he told clark.."son, i don noe how to protect u anymore.."...then clark replied an answer so perfect tht its worth to be placed in every son's mind..." Thts not ur job, dad....ur job is to teach me how to protect myself."....when i heard tht again theres some clicking in my mind...its like..hmmm....very very true...this ties in with one of the parenting lesson i posted a few weeks ago...about trusting the child into making his or her own decision...i think the mistake that some parents make is tht they sometimes do not realise tht their child has become old enuff to make their own decision...yea also bcos to them their child seem always young...but its so critical to the child's growth for making his own decision and learn from the mistakes tht if not done...the child wont be able to protect himself when the time comes..the parents' job is to teach their child to build a life...not build it for them....=)...
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 9:36 PM
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