Saturday, April 29, 2006
hello ppls....been quite an eventful week this one..first off...i started my job!!....=)....more like physical labor...lol wasnt really expecting tht much...and i don really like to admit it...but my shoulders and hands are kinda a bit sore after carrying tables...chairs(10 at once on a cart)....i got this shift thts 10pm to 12am (nice huh) in the place...im carrying 10 chairs on a cart...and guess wad happen....all suddenly drop!!...u hav to be there to imagine the noise it makes...its both luck and unlucky its at night...lucky becos theres not many ppl there to see me being foolish...unlucky bcos its at night its quiet so the noise reverberated throughout 2 freakin floors....i down there look at the building manager and say 'my bad..'...wahahaha....its really awkward sia...well come on im new...then when im locking up the building i receive my first official radio message..."854 to 820 Daniel.."....then i excited hahaha like small child go take my walkie-talkie and press the button and say..."Go ahead..."...in a serious voice...and then...then...the message replied.."want a soda?"....i down there -_-llll like siao...so i reply "yea sure thing.."....wahahaha...but the walkie-talkie thing is pretty cool...but the soda thing as the first official message is just so wad-the-hell....wahahaha..but its memorable though...everytime i go take my walkie-talkie feel like playing with it...always meddle with the volume...make sure i can hear and everything..hahaha...quite fun...=)
wa then this week mark another one of the dumbest thing i ever did in my life...yesh...life...ok it went like this...after i go to the international center i feel like going to the toilet...so i go in...then i wonder...how come there are no urinary?...so i don really give it too much thought and went into one of the cubicles....and then theres a person outside...but theres something funny...how come the footsteps so loud?...as in the heels make tht clicking sound a bit too loud...then i down there process for a while..."no urinary...a person who is supposed to b a guy has heels tht make loud noises...hmmm"...then suddenly i finally realised and say "holy crap!"...then i wait until the person go out then i straight away dash outside and see the sign on the door of the toilet i went into...its says "Ladies"....bolded some more...i was like "oh".....when i go back to my room i was actually laughing at myself...now for me the part where i go into the ladies toilet is not ..mayb not dumb but more like accidental bcos i got quite a few things on my mind...its the part where i took so long to realise its a ladies toilet tht got me cracking at how foolish i can be sometimes...so many signs..3 actually..the all-cubicle toilet...the scent (yea got the perfume smell)..and the person wif loud heels....wahahaha....so tht counts 3 as the dumb things i did in the US...first as being go bathe in the floor bathroom nv bring towel (check out my archives for full details)....second is when i change dorm nv bring my pillow..then one week sleep on clothes as my pillow...wahahaha...foolish goofy me...=P
I probably hav many fav smallvlle episodes...but one of my fav has just been played abt 15 mins ago...its entitled "Memoria" from the third season...this is when clark gains his earliest memory whereby he was put into the ship by his mum...then clark told his earth mum abt it...its such a powerful and emotional scene with the song "My Immortal" playing behind it....even the director has tears flowing down his cheeks when he watched this scene...its really a beautiful scene...this is one of the episodes tht i like merely for the emotions it caused to stir in me...some of my fav episodes....im not sure really entitled wad..but probably come under parenting ones..(no comments pls)...the self-sacrificial ones....well generally they taught some kind of lessons or just reached out to me...
"Sooner or later in life everyone discovers that perfect happiness us unrealizable, but there are few who pause to consider the antithesis: that perfect unhappiness is equally unattainable. The obstacles preventing the realization of both these extreme states are of the same nature: they derive from our human condition which is opposed to everything infinite. Our ever-insufficient knowledge of the future opposes it: and this is called, in one instance, hope, and in the other, uncertainty of the following day. The certainty of death opposes it: for it places a limit on every joy, but also on every grief. The inevitable material cares oppose it: for as tey poison every lasting happiness, they equally assiduously distract us from our misfortunes and make our consciousness of them intermittent and hence supportable." Primo Levi
the above quote is from a book written by Primo Levi, a person tht was detained in one of the death camps by the Germans during WW2 in Aushwitz, Poland....kinda makes sense doesnt it...the quote i mean...it helps me believe tht depression is all abt the state of mind...its abt wad the mind says and how it interprets events to itself...its not abt the events tht is happening to tht person..its all abt the interpretation of the events thts registering in the mind....
Haiz....i got serious mental block rite now...also cos i just hav too many things my mind now...i hav to sort myself out....a bit headache....i will write a longer one when summer come k ppl?...wish me luck at sorting my complex mind..
wa then this week mark another one of the dumbest thing i ever did in my life...yesh...life...ok it went like this...after i go to the international center i feel like going to the toilet...so i go in...then i wonder...how come there are no urinary?...so i don really give it too much thought and went into one of the cubicles....and then theres a person outside...but theres something funny...how come the footsteps so loud?...as in the heels make tht clicking sound a bit too loud...then i down there process for a while..."no urinary...a person who is supposed to b a guy has heels tht make loud noises...hmmm"...then suddenly i finally realised and say "holy crap!"...then i wait until the person go out then i straight away dash outside and see the sign on the door of the toilet i went into...its says "Ladies"....bolded some more...i was like "oh".....when i go back to my room i was actually laughing at myself...now for me the part where i go into the ladies toilet is not ..mayb not dumb but more like accidental bcos i got quite a few things on my mind...its the part where i took so long to realise its a ladies toilet tht got me cracking at how foolish i can be sometimes...so many signs..3 actually..the all-cubicle toilet...the scent (yea got the perfume smell)..and the person wif loud heels....wahahaha....so tht counts 3 as the dumb things i did in the US...first as being go bathe in the floor bathroom nv bring towel (check out my archives for full details)....second is when i change dorm nv bring my pillow..then one week sleep on clothes as my pillow...wahahaha...foolish goofy me...=P
I probably hav many fav smallvlle episodes...but one of my fav has just been played abt 15 mins ago...its entitled "Memoria" from the third season...this is when clark gains his earliest memory whereby he was put into the ship by his mum...then clark told his earth mum abt it...its such a powerful and emotional scene with the song "My Immortal" playing behind it....even the director has tears flowing down his cheeks when he watched this scene...its really a beautiful scene...this is one of the episodes tht i like merely for the emotions it caused to stir in me...some of my fav episodes....im not sure really entitled wad..but probably come under parenting ones..(no comments pls)...the self-sacrificial ones....well generally they taught some kind of lessons or just reached out to me...
"Sooner or later in life everyone discovers that perfect happiness us unrealizable, but there are few who pause to consider the antithesis: that perfect unhappiness is equally unattainable. The obstacles preventing the realization of both these extreme states are of the same nature: they derive from our human condition which is opposed to everything infinite. Our ever-insufficient knowledge of the future opposes it: and this is called, in one instance, hope, and in the other, uncertainty of the following day. The certainty of death opposes it: for it places a limit on every joy, but also on every grief. The inevitable material cares oppose it: for as tey poison every lasting happiness, they equally assiduously distract us from our misfortunes and make our consciousness of them intermittent and hence supportable." Primo Levi
the above quote is from a book written by Primo Levi, a person tht was detained in one of the death camps by the Germans during WW2 in Aushwitz, Poland....kinda makes sense doesnt it...the quote i mean...it helps me believe tht depression is all abt the state of mind...its abt wad the mind says and how it interprets events to itself...its not abt the events tht is happening to tht person..its all abt the interpretation of the events thts registering in the mind....
Haiz....i got serious mental block rite now...also cos i just hav too many things my mind now...i hav to sort myself out....a bit headache....i will write a longer one when summer come k ppl?...wish me luck at sorting my complex mind..
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 10:06 PM
Saturday, April 22, 2006
hello ppl...i just got back from an indo dinner...a very nice dinner...=)...not only the food...the atmosphere too..had great laughs..=)..well basically my first impression is when i looked for ppl i didnt recognize (wad i did everytime i go for gathering)...i was surprised i recognised everyone...its quite nice actually...for some reason tht kinda completes my 'orientation' into the indo ppl here...hahaha..kinda takes a while doesnt it...like 5 months...i still cant believe it has actually been tht long...it was some tme this week when i realised..'wad the hell...theres only 3 weeks left in the semester..'...i was like...where did time go?...the first week for me here is like a year..but after a while my mind goes like 'time will pass faster if u don look too much in the long run..'..i realised tht i've been living week by week...as in im looking into my life by each week...not in the long run...i don noe if its a good thing or not...but it sure does help the time pass like flash...
anyway i went for soccer competition yesterday and today..its called 'Marquette World Cup'..hahaha...as in yea it is in some way a type of world cup cos all the competitors form teams based on their nationality....well indonesia won the first round and got into the semifinals...but we got eliminated then...its quite an experience...had a lot of fun...one of the funnest is when we saw a pretty girl..and i really mean pretty in the european team and the guys is like all talking abt her...its hilarious...u hav to be there to actually experience it...hahaha..
heh everyone is starting school this week huh (my badge of sec 4s)...it feels funny somehow...it acts as somekind of detachment for me...i don noe how to describe it...but i came up wif a quote i tink abt last week.."As i settled, they served the purpose and moved on."...now i really kinda made this sound bad by saying their purpose...but seriously..thts as close as it is to how i feel abt it..now don get me wrong as if they r done with their purpose they slowly walk out of my life...tht is serious...seriously...seriously the last thing i want in my life...bcos as i mentioned b4 in one of my entries...my family and friends in spore acts as a pillar...like someone i can always count on to be there for me...not tht i mean physically but as in for emotional support and those stuffs...the first few months for me has been so difficult for me tht when i look back now....i never want to hav to go through the process...i noe i grow a lot from the process...but for some reason there r almost times tht i can just break down tht if i break down a couple more times i can never recover back...but again sometimes i can be outsmarted by myself by saying 'Wadever tht doesnt kill u makes u stronger.'...well its just tht my point is without the memories and the company of the ppl back home...i don tink i can ever make it on my own here...=)...*fist to heart* to u guys...=)...it also occurs to me y im actually put into the spring semester here...bcos i have been wondering tht i shld hav gone into the fall semester bcos tht the time where everyone is new in the school then...yea its different from spore where the new year starts at january..its starts in august here...anyway my answer came in this week...the fact tht i need the ppl back home more than the ppl here for the settling in part proves tht...if i came in during the fall semester...my friends will all be in school by then and they definitely don hav as much time as they had during january...seriously like everytime i come back from my 9 oclock class i will straight away go back to my room and check who online to tok to...usually cheryl harry yeos....=)...but in the morning my time is usually the time where a lot more ppl r online...anyway coming back to my point...i tink the guy up there has put me in the spring semester for this particular reason....
this past week i realised tht wad u tink u will become...sometimes thts a good thing...sometimes thts a bad thing...ok lets take me for an example...i hav always model the physiology and mental processes of ppl whom i admire...usually for their strength and confidence...and i picked a few ppl..Adam Khoo....Stuart Tan...Anthony Robbins and Superman...i watched and observed the way they talk: their tone...their speed of speech...their choice of words...the loudness...then i observe the way they carry themself: the way they walk...the way they stand when they stand still...their facial expressions...these physical things abt them makes them radiate strength and confidence...after i observed this...i put it into practice by mirroring just wad they did....then i observed the way they think...since Adam and Stuart are my coaches they taught me the ways to think so tht not only on the outside u r strong...but on the inside u r too...cos wad i tink is tht ppl sometimes put up this strong front...but inside they can be broken a lot easier than they seem on the outside...well anyway they taught me...i learnt...but havent been as successful as i had been on the outer appearance..hahaha...thts y i probably built this defensive shield to protect wads inside...wad made me think abt this is in one of my calls wif my mum last week...she ask me...'Do u still miss home?'....and for some reason i answered 'No.'...and it came out so quick tht for its almost like an instinct...thts a lie of coz..i miss home like hell...now its not so bad cos i've learnt to live wif it...but anyway this is the part when i say its bad in the start of this paragraph...when i say wad u think u will become...like i keep thinking to myself to be the strong and confident person i want to be...but in the process i hav only become strong in the outer appearance but still relatively weak on the inside tht i built tht defensive shield..tht came right out when i said No...it almost sounds rude...im actually quite ashamed of myself after i thought abt it...its like.."im acting too much"...haiz...nvm..bcos sometimes i also feel tht theres always 2 sides to a coin...and for tht reason ppl too...
u noe something..i tink by writing down all these thoughts down...it can act as some sort of therapy u can do for urself...like wad Stuart said in my tagbox..."Introspection and reflection strengthens the soul"...i hav no idea how it works..but everytime i write finish a blog entry or a diary entry..especially if b4 tht i hav a lot of things on my mind...for some reason i can write a lot more when i just let my mind speak...bcos after Os i actually decided to write a book on personal development...but it nv kinda developed into a full book...its hardly even a chapter...but when i write a blog entry...i almost nv find it hard to write down my thoughts...its like when i don make it a chore...i will do a lot better ...strange huh..
anyway i went for soccer competition yesterday and today..its called 'Marquette World Cup'..hahaha...as in yea it is in some way a type of world cup cos all the competitors form teams based on their nationality....well indonesia won the first round and got into the semifinals...but we got eliminated then...its quite an experience...had a lot of fun...one of the funnest is when we saw a pretty girl..and i really mean pretty in the european team and the guys is like all talking abt her...its hilarious...u hav to be there to actually experience it...hahaha..
heh everyone is starting school this week huh (my badge of sec 4s)...it feels funny somehow...it acts as somekind of detachment for me...i don noe how to describe it...but i came up wif a quote i tink abt last week.."As i settled, they served the purpose and moved on."...now i really kinda made this sound bad by saying their purpose...but seriously..thts as close as it is to how i feel abt it..now don get me wrong as if they r done with their purpose they slowly walk out of my life...tht is serious...seriously...seriously the last thing i want in my life...bcos as i mentioned b4 in one of my entries...my family and friends in spore acts as a pillar...like someone i can always count on to be there for me...not tht i mean physically but as in for emotional support and those stuffs...the first few months for me has been so difficult for me tht when i look back now....i never want to hav to go through the process...i noe i grow a lot from the process...but for some reason there r almost times tht i can just break down tht if i break down a couple more times i can never recover back...but again sometimes i can be outsmarted by myself by saying 'Wadever tht doesnt kill u makes u stronger.'...well its just tht my point is without the memories and the company of the ppl back home...i don tink i can ever make it on my own here...=)...*fist to heart* to u guys...=)...it also occurs to me y im actually put into the spring semester here...bcos i have been wondering tht i shld hav gone into the fall semester bcos tht the time where everyone is new in the school then...yea its different from spore where the new year starts at january..its starts in august here...anyway my answer came in this week...the fact tht i need the ppl back home more than the ppl here for the settling in part proves tht...if i came in during the fall semester...my friends will all be in school by then and they definitely don hav as much time as they had during january...seriously like everytime i come back from my 9 oclock class i will straight away go back to my room and check who online to tok to...usually cheryl harry yeos....=)...but in the morning my time is usually the time where a lot more ppl r online...anyway coming back to my point...i tink the guy up there has put me in the spring semester for this particular reason....
this past week i realised tht wad u tink u will become...sometimes thts a good thing...sometimes thts a bad thing...ok lets take me for an example...i hav always model the physiology and mental processes of ppl whom i admire...usually for their strength and confidence...and i picked a few ppl..Adam Khoo....Stuart Tan...Anthony Robbins and Superman...i watched and observed the way they talk: their tone...their speed of speech...their choice of words...the loudness...then i observe the way they carry themself: the way they walk...the way they stand when they stand still...their facial expressions...these physical things abt them makes them radiate strength and confidence...after i observed this...i put it into practice by mirroring just wad they did....then i observed the way they think...since Adam and Stuart are my coaches they taught me the ways to think so tht not only on the outside u r strong...but on the inside u r too...cos wad i tink is tht ppl sometimes put up this strong front...but inside they can be broken a lot easier than they seem on the outside...well anyway they taught me...i learnt...but havent been as successful as i had been on the outer appearance..hahaha...thts y i probably built this defensive shield to protect wads inside...wad made me think abt this is in one of my calls wif my mum last week...she ask me...'Do u still miss home?'....and for some reason i answered 'No.'...and it came out so quick tht for its almost like an instinct...thts a lie of coz..i miss home like hell...now its not so bad cos i've learnt to live wif it...but anyway this is the part when i say its bad in the start of this paragraph...when i say wad u think u will become...like i keep thinking to myself to be the strong and confident person i want to be...but in the process i hav only become strong in the outer appearance but still relatively weak on the inside tht i built tht defensive shield..tht came right out when i said No...it almost sounds rude...im actually quite ashamed of myself after i thought abt it...its like.."im acting too much"...haiz...nvm..bcos sometimes i also feel tht theres always 2 sides to a coin...and for tht reason ppl too...
u noe something..i tink by writing down all these thoughts down...it can act as some sort of therapy u can do for urself...like wad Stuart said in my tagbox..."Introspection and reflection strengthens the soul"...i hav no idea how it works..but everytime i write finish a blog entry or a diary entry..especially if b4 tht i hav a lot of things on my mind...for some reason i can write a lot more when i just let my mind speak...bcos after Os i actually decided to write a book on personal development...but it nv kinda developed into a full book...its hardly even a chapter...but when i write a blog entry...i almost nv find it hard to write down my thoughts...its like when i don make it a chore...i will do a lot better ...strange huh..
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 11:32 PM
Saturday, April 15, 2006
woosh...feel tired now man...played soccer from 2 to 5....hahaha...my feet not used to the soccer boots now got blisters...ouch...im having my easter break now...5 days..hehehe...and my floor now is so so quiet..cos i tink im the only one here....and this week i came in contact wif ppl from swiss cottage primary!...i havent talked to them for like 7 yrs man geez...its a real shock to see how much they changed...or even dont...wahaha..no offence...but yea im pretty glad i met them again..thru friendster...i was supposed to be doing a paper in the library when i decided to do a little searching in friendster...and i decided to watch phantom of the opera when im in ny...thts seriously going to be an experience...its like i fell in love wif the play when i watch the movie...its going to cost too...like 70 bucks...so i really got to work my ass off during summer for not only the play but also for the shopping in new york....and not tht im going to take it as if my debit card has no limit to it or wadsoever....but i found a way in order for me not to spend too much...im going to hav tht 'buy list' recorded mentally...so i will at least noe wad to buy...=)...
i watched lord of the rings just now..(its ok not smallville anymore)....and theres a scene whereby aragorn and arwen has their scene...its the two towers by the way....aragorn was in a dilemma..he doesnt noe where to go..saying tht his path is hidden from him...then arwen said something tht got thru my mind and makes perfect sense....she said..."if u lost everyone and everything u trust...trust ur heart..."...i noe some ppl will say its cheesy and all tht bs...but sometimes..or most of the time..cheesy stuff makes sense..anyway...u may find thts its tough to say tht just trust your heart...but read the line properly again...its says IF u lost everything and everyone...wad im saying is tht when u r making a decision...best to use ur heart as ur root...and then ur mind, family, and friends as ur trunk and branches...heh strange analogy but i tink its the best there is...=)...cos for me its worst when it comes to making decisions...like wad course or major u want to choose in uni which can potentially be a choice for ur future....then u face the problem of having ur friends going to one course tht u noe u don really favor...but then u r afraid of unfamiliarity if u want to choose another path... all tht comes into play...
one part of the movie also teaches me abt something...u remember the times when u suddenly felt totally helpless?....when u r like "wad the hell am i doing here?"....like seriously lost hope...feel like turning back and all?....yea at one part of the movie frodo was at this point...he just felt tht he couldnt go on anymore...even suicidal....mayb some ppl hav tht moment b4..but then think of this....his companion sam told him something ...in stories there r ppl who are faced with a challenge so great and daunting tht it may potentially crush them...some decide to turn back and run...while some decided to move and fight on to see the sun rise...this power..this determination...all comes from within them....the fact tht they r holding onto something...and when they pass through this period of darkness...they bcome stronger than ever...(i added a bit to wad he said)....anyway...my point is tht i...very young me...hav seen lots of my friends who dwell in their own self-pity and wad sam described as period of darkness...they seem to b outside their mind, body, and soul and looking at their state at tht moment...(i've actually thought to write this in my diary but thought it mayb more useful to put it in my blog entry)....Sometimes they don realise tht they r actually at tht state...wallowing in self-pity and not looking for a way out...or sometimes they r just waiting for ppl to pull them out of tht period..i believe in this quote to the maximum.."You cannot help a person who doesnt want to be helped."....sometimes when in tht period some ppl just choose to feel tht way...and they think they r waiting for ppl to pull them out....but i can seriously say tht they can be waiting forever..let me give u a simpler situation...u definitely hav a time where u r unhappy or upset rite....and someone comes along and says 'cheer up !..everything is going to be ok !'..u probably put on tht smile and say thanks...but u noe deep down inside tht u r not feeling any better at all...or u may bcos tht person who says it to u is ur significant one..but its a temporary effect..until U CHOOSE to feel better...and then u feel better..its the same wif the period of darkness part..its until the time where u say.."Im sick and tired of this state im in..im sick and tired of being powerless at solving this problem...i want to break out !!"...and then u start to feel different...u feel better and everything seems more beautiful and better...
now im writing this bcos i noe how it feels like...and sometimes when i tink back on those times i dwell upon foolish thoughts of me being alone and the whole world is going against me...its stupid...seriously...it takes some time for me to realise tht...y am i doing this to myself...some of the ppl live their lives as if the problems tht meet them r not challenging at all...but these ppl i noe hav problems which r far bigger than mine..,but the difference between me and them(at least at tht time) was tht instead of focusing on the problem itself..they tend to shift their focus to the solution to tht problem...its like their mind work the complete different way....for example when i am faced wif a problem b4 i meet these ppl....my mind will fire off "oh shit"...well the focusing on the problem goes worst than those 2 words..wahaha...but anyway...when these grp of ppl i met r challenged wif a problem...their mind will fire off in a completely different way...they will think.."hmm...how do i get out of this mess..."...its tough to get into tht kind of automatic fire-off...but after a number of practices...it does automatically fire off tht way...but i do slip sometimes..(come on im only human =)...)..i will tend to dwell of the fact tht theres no one in the world who has the same problem as me...my problem r bigger and tht sort of thinking...but the thing is tht the recovery is faster...there r countless times where i want to put nicks on msn tht screams out self pity...but after a while i smack myself in the forehead. and say."wad am i doing??"..and then things get better from there.....strange?...its just the way the mind works...but i want to point out tht there ARE ppl who hav problems bigger and deeper than ours....but then again the quote tht i mention a few weeks ago come into play..."The level of challenges that you are facing now is such tht u r well-equipped enough from past experiences to deal with the present challenges."...
coming back to wad sam said in the movie...he said tht these ppl hav the strength to trudge on becos they r holding onto something...wad i may also call ur center...in other words its the purpose of why u r doing wad u r doing at tht moment...when u r lost...u can always fall back to this very purpose tht can give u the strength to march on....lets look at me for an example...there was a time when i was completely lost here...like feeling i want to give everything up (yes it had been tht bad)...but then i fall back to y am i doing this...wads the purpose of me leaving familiarity and jumping into alien reality....the answer is the fact tht its for my own personal growth as a person...make me more independent...get my degree so i can lead the best life i can....its tht purpose and reason tht is driving force...everytime i fall...i would fall back to my center which is my purpose...purpose and goals gives us tht direction and destination to shoot for and tht driving force to lead us all the way to our destination...=)
i watched lord of the rings just now..(its ok not smallville anymore)....and theres a scene whereby aragorn and arwen has their scene...its the two towers by the way....aragorn was in a dilemma..he doesnt noe where to go..saying tht his path is hidden from him...then arwen said something tht got thru my mind and makes perfect sense....she said..."if u lost everyone and everything u trust...trust ur heart..."...i noe some ppl will say its cheesy and all tht bs...but sometimes..or most of the time..cheesy stuff makes sense..anyway...u may find thts its tough to say tht just trust your heart...but read the line properly again...its says IF u lost everything and everyone...wad im saying is tht when u r making a decision...best to use ur heart as ur root...and then ur mind, family, and friends as ur trunk and branches...heh strange analogy but i tink its the best there is...=)...cos for me its worst when it comes to making decisions...like wad course or major u want to choose in uni which can potentially be a choice for ur future....then u face the problem of having ur friends going to one course tht u noe u don really favor...but then u r afraid of unfamiliarity if u want to choose another path... all tht comes into play...
one part of the movie also teaches me abt something...u remember the times when u suddenly felt totally helpless?....when u r like "wad the hell am i doing here?"....like seriously lost hope...feel like turning back and all?....yea at one part of the movie frodo was at this point...he just felt tht he couldnt go on anymore...even suicidal....mayb some ppl hav tht moment b4..but then think of this....his companion sam told him something ...in stories there r ppl who are faced with a challenge so great and daunting tht it may potentially crush them...some decide to turn back and run...while some decided to move and fight on to see the sun rise...this power..this determination...all comes from within them....the fact tht they r holding onto something...and when they pass through this period of darkness...they bcome stronger than ever...(i added a bit to wad he said)....anyway...my point is tht i...very young me...hav seen lots of my friends who dwell in their own self-pity and wad sam described as period of darkness...they seem to b outside their mind, body, and soul and looking at their state at tht moment...(i've actually thought to write this in my diary but thought it mayb more useful to put it in my blog entry)....Sometimes they don realise tht they r actually at tht state...wallowing in self-pity and not looking for a way out...or sometimes they r just waiting for ppl to pull them out of tht period..i believe in this quote to the maximum.."You cannot help a person who doesnt want to be helped."....sometimes when in tht period some ppl just choose to feel tht way...and they think they r waiting for ppl to pull them out....but i can seriously say tht they can be waiting forever..let me give u a simpler situation...u definitely hav a time where u r unhappy or upset rite....and someone comes along and says 'cheer up !..everything is going to be ok !'..u probably put on tht smile and say thanks...but u noe deep down inside tht u r not feeling any better at all...or u may bcos tht person who says it to u is ur significant one..but its a temporary effect..until U CHOOSE to feel better...and then u feel better..its the same wif the period of darkness part..its until the time where u say.."Im sick and tired of this state im in..im sick and tired of being powerless at solving this problem...i want to break out !!"...and then u start to feel different...u feel better and everything seems more beautiful and better...
now im writing this bcos i noe how it feels like...and sometimes when i tink back on those times i dwell upon foolish thoughts of me being alone and the whole world is going against me...its stupid...seriously...it takes some time for me to realise tht...y am i doing this to myself...some of the ppl live their lives as if the problems tht meet them r not challenging at all...but these ppl i noe hav problems which r far bigger than mine..,but the difference between me and them(at least at tht time) was tht instead of focusing on the problem itself..they tend to shift their focus to the solution to tht problem...its like their mind work the complete different way....for example when i am faced wif a problem b4 i meet these ppl....my mind will fire off "oh shit"...well the focusing on the problem goes worst than those 2 words..wahaha...but anyway...when these grp of ppl i met r challenged wif a problem...their mind will fire off in a completely different way...they will think.."hmm...how do i get out of this mess..."...its tough to get into tht kind of automatic fire-off...but after a number of practices...it does automatically fire off tht way...but i do slip sometimes..(come on im only human =)...)..i will tend to dwell of the fact tht theres no one in the world who has the same problem as me...my problem r bigger and tht sort of thinking...but the thing is tht the recovery is faster...there r countless times where i want to put nicks on msn tht screams out self pity...but after a while i smack myself in the forehead. and say."wad am i doing??"..and then things get better from there.....strange?...its just the way the mind works...but i want to point out tht there ARE ppl who hav problems bigger and deeper than ours....but then again the quote tht i mention a few weeks ago come into play..."The level of challenges that you are facing now is such tht u r well-equipped enough from past experiences to deal with the present challenges."...
coming back to wad sam said in the movie...he said tht these ppl hav the strength to trudge on becos they r holding onto something...wad i may also call ur center...in other words its the purpose of why u r doing wad u r doing at tht moment...when u r lost...u can always fall back to this very purpose tht can give u the strength to march on....lets look at me for an example...there was a time when i was completely lost here...like feeling i want to give everything up (yes it had been tht bad)...but then i fall back to y am i doing this...wads the purpose of me leaving familiarity and jumping into alien reality....the answer is the fact tht its for my own personal growth as a person...make me more independent...get my degree so i can lead the best life i can....its tht purpose and reason tht is driving force...everytime i fall...i would fall back to my center which is my purpose...purpose and goals gives us tht direction and destination to shoot for and tht driving force to lead us all the way to our destination...=)
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 8:52 PM
Saturday, April 08, 2006
aaah man...im just over wif one of ...or the most hectic week since i've been here...its nuts man...on monday i didnt thought i got tht much to do but then on tuesday i started jotting down the things i got...and i got pretty shocked...i got a history test on friday...engl test on thurs....theo assignment due friday...math hw due wed...and a bit more i forgot...its seriously sick...to make things worse...i got flu on thursday...i was like dying on thurday night man...then got hist test on friday morning...which could hav gone worse cos i gambled wif the qst tht might come out and i gambled right...but i was under flu tht morning so it could hav been better...oh ya my name got printed on the university newspaper !!...hehehe....its abt the tkd thing...they reported i got first in forms and breaking and second in sparring..pretty cool man..hahaha...and i also got a job interview on monday!!...heh first job ever...its called assistant building manager..sounds cool?...well wad i do is prepare for events...as in the physical part...like arranging tables and food....wahaha..cool name but the job kinda manual mostly...but im going to use this as a stepping stone to bigger jobs...so at least next time when i apply for more higher jobs i can boast abt job experience..hehehehe
this past week ive been kinda reading my past entries....u noe since january....and i realise tht there is quite a lot transitions going on there...i don really noe how to describe it...but there r really some changes..small ones like knowing how to draw out money from an atm machine...starting a bank account...how to do laundry..how to do a bit of groceries (consist of cookies, milk, shampoo, disposable utensils...cereal...wahahaha)...and big things...like how to not feel uncomfortable when eating alone in a cafetaria full of ppl...how to step outside comfort boundaries and feel tht its necessary...how to bring myself back up when i fall...realising fully tht family and friends are most important in my life...learning abt humility...stuffs like tht...
u noe..these things u might say its something we all r already expected to noe...but understanding and just knowing is 2 completely different things....for example...u noe tht we shld nv take our family and friends for granted...but u may nv understand it completely until the point whereby u r very far from them and cant see them face to face....its like yea i know im taught in akltg abt the importance of family and friends during the camp...but i really nv fully comprehend it until now...its like u really hav to be in tht position whereby u r waaayyy outside ur comfort boundary and u hav no one u noe to turn to....at this point u suddenly will say...'i hope my family and friends were here...'....and its a difficult process...but its necessary sometimes if u want to learn how to b indepedent...
i read a reading in my theo class last wed..and for the first time it makes sense and sparked tht interest in me...its actually the first time i told myself to keep on reading and not to take a nap...wahahaha...ahem..anyway...its generally abt the God being dependent or self-sufficient...i noe u guys r definitely screaming to me 'of coz self sufficient!'..but wait!....let me type down part of the reading... :
" An all-good being would presumably prevent evil only if it could do so without thereby preventing some greater good not possible without lesser evil. God would have created persons only out of his pure love for them amd desire to enter into a genuine relationship with them. Love presupposes, however, an object that exist in some way. If God created persons out of love for them, they must have pre-existed and in a mode more real than the manner in which ideas exist in the mind of mortals. Indeed if God desired our love, then he manifested a need essential to godhood--But God's manifesting any need is clearly incompatible with the concept of an absolute being. "
ok in short wad its saying tht if God is a perfect God...he must be an absolute being...self-sufficient...but then thts not wad i want to tok abt..cos if i tok abt this im probably gonna earn my ticket to hell faster cos im just not in the right place to talk abt theologic contradictions...my point is in the first sentence of tht paragraph and this quote from the reading..."The idea of static, absolute perfection must be replaced, with the idea of perfection as a dynamic creativity that acts to enhance the happiness of others and by so doing enhances its own happiness" doesnt it make perfect sense??...the realization of the quote 'For greater good to exist, there must be a lesser evil' was like jumping out of the reading and then printed itself on my brain when i was reading it...ok mayb i will use tht quote to make some examples...some of u guys now are probably starting in ur new school very soon rite..(my badge of sec 4s)...and u may ...or probably most definitely will feel scared and very uncomfortable going out of ur comfort boundary and into the unknown...and realise tht even though some ppl say its a good thing...the uncomfortable part is definitely the 'lesser evil' part ..bcos no one likes to feel uncomfortable and tht makes it some type of evil....then the 'greater good' comes into play when u got more familiar wif the surrounding...made new friends...mayb even met a new love or something...but theres the greater good...all the pieces now come together...(at least it is for me)....its like at tht moment when i was reading it in the library the pieces of puzzle come together perfectly....i hop it does the same for u guys...=)
heh i was watching smallville abt haf an hour ago(no comments pls) and i was listening very closely when clark has a conversation wif his dad....i finally pin down one of the very important things of a good parent...when lets say they r abt 12 or 13...a parent has to put their belief in them...faith of them making good choices...like for example if the child is unsure of wads going to happen if he or she is going to make the right or wrong choice in the future....a parent may tell the child...'i don noe when tht time will come or wad choices it might offer to u...but when the time comes...i believe tht u r going to do the right thing..'...makes sense? i noe it might sound a little cheesy but it does kinda hav a tremendous effect on the child...cos it teaches the child to grow up and make his or her own choices...cos if a parent is going to like say 'choose this..choose tht...do this...do tht...' until they r like youths...and when the parents r not arnd anymore...the child is going to say...' wad the hell am i going to do??'....now i wanna make this clear...if u r reading this and ur parents r doing the 'do this do tht' style...DO NOT blame them....im no expert on parenthood either (geez im 17 years old for pete's sake)...its just my opinion from my analysis from smallville...but if u tink wad i said is true and ur parents r doing the wrong way..again DO NOT blame them...take it as some kind of lesson...so tht one u can b ready when the time comes for u to make a choice...and also when u hav ur own child u would not do the less favorable way....parents...however bad they are...r still our parents and they deserve our love and utmost respect (this is wad i took away from akltg camp..=) ...)..
this past week ive been kinda reading my past entries....u noe since january....and i realise tht there is quite a lot transitions going on there...i don really noe how to describe it...but there r really some changes..small ones like knowing how to draw out money from an atm machine...starting a bank account...how to do laundry..how to do a bit of groceries (consist of cookies, milk, shampoo, disposable utensils...cereal...wahahaha)...and big things...like how to not feel uncomfortable when eating alone in a cafetaria full of ppl...how to step outside comfort boundaries and feel tht its necessary...how to bring myself back up when i fall...realising fully tht family and friends are most important in my life...learning abt humility...stuffs like tht...
u noe..these things u might say its something we all r already expected to noe...but understanding and just knowing is 2 completely different things....for example...u noe tht we shld nv take our family and friends for granted...but u may nv understand it completely until the point whereby u r very far from them and cant see them face to face....its like yea i know im taught in akltg abt the importance of family and friends during the camp...but i really nv fully comprehend it until now...its like u really hav to be in tht position whereby u r waaayyy outside ur comfort boundary and u hav no one u noe to turn to....at this point u suddenly will say...'i hope my family and friends were here...'....and its a difficult process...but its necessary sometimes if u want to learn how to b indepedent...
i read a reading in my theo class last wed..and for the first time it makes sense and sparked tht interest in me...its actually the first time i told myself to keep on reading and not to take a nap...wahahaha...ahem..anyway...its generally abt the God being dependent or self-sufficient...i noe u guys r definitely screaming to me 'of coz self sufficient!'..but wait!....let me type down part of the reading... :
" An all-good being would presumably prevent evil only if it could do so without thereby preventing some greater good not possible without lesser evil. God would have created persons only out of his pure love for them amd desire to enter into a genuine relationship with them. Love presupposes, however, an object that exist in some way. If God created persons out of love for them, they must have pre-existed and in a mode more real than the manner in which ideas exist in the mind of mortals. Indeed if God desired our love, then he manifested a need essential to godhood--But God's manifesting any need is clearly incompatible with the concept of an absolute being. "
ok in short wad its saying tht if God is a perfect God...he must be an absolute being...self-sufficient...but then thts not wad i want to tok abt..cos if i tok abt this im probably gonna earn my ticket to hell faster cos im just not in the right place to talk abt theologic contradictions...my point is in the first sentence of tht paragraph and this quote from the reading..."The idea of static, absolute perfection must be replaced, with the idea of perfection as a dynamic creativity that acts to enhance the happiness of others and by so doing enhances its own happiness" doesnt it make perfect sense??...the realization of the quote 'For greater good to exist, there must be a lesser evil' was like jumping out of the reading and then printed itself on my brain when i was reading it...ok mayb i will use tht quote to make some examples...some of u guys now are probably starting in ur new school very soon rite..(my badge of sec 4s)...and u may ...or probably most definitely will feel scared and very uncomfortable going out of ur comfort boundary and into the unknown...and realise tht even though some ppl say its a good thing...the uncomfortable part is definitely the 'lesser evil' part ..bcos no one likes to feel uncomfortable and tht makes it some type of evil....then the 'greater good' comes into play when u got more familiar wif the surrounding...made new friends...mayb even met a new love or something...but theres the greater good...all the pieces now come together...(at least it is for me)....its like at tht moment when i was reading it in the library the pieces of puzzle come together perfectly....i hop it does the same for u guys...=)
heh i was watching smallville abt haf an hour ago(no comments pls) and i was listening very closely when clark has a conversation wif his dad....i finally pin down one of the very important things of a good parent...when lets say they r abt 12 or 13...a parent has to put their belief in them...faith of them making good choices...like for example if the child is unsure of wads going to happen if he or she is going to make the right or wrong choice in the future....a parent may tell the child...'i don noe when tht time will come or wad choices it might offer to u...but when the time comes...i believe tht u r going to do the right thing..'...makes sense? i noe it might sound a little cheesy but it does kinda hav a tremendous effect on the child...cos it teaches the child to grow up and make his or her own choices...cos if a parent is going to like say 'choose this..choose tht...do this...do tht...' until they r like youths...and when the parents r not arnd anymore...the child is going to say...' wad the hell am i going to do??'....now i wanna make this clear...if u r reading this and ur parents r doing the 'do this do tht' style...DO NOT blame them....im no expert on parenthood either (geez im 17 years old for pete's sake)...its just my opinion from my analysis from smallville...but if u tink wad i said is true and ur parents r doing the wrong way..again DO NOT blame them...take it as some kind of lesson...so tht one u can b ready when the time comes for u to make a choice...and also when u hav ur own child u would not do the less favorable way....parents...however bad they are...r still our parents and they deserve our love and utmost respect (this is wad i took away from akltg camp..=) ...)..
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 10:56 PM
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Woo hoo !!...i went to tkd tournament today and took part in 3 competitions...forms..breakings and sparring....and i got first place for the first 2 but second on the sparring...well the sparring doesnt really count cos theres only 2 competitors in my division...so tht don count..but the breaking and forms i got first man...hehehe...so cool walking arnd wif 2 big trophies in my hands..but there r some serious martial arts shown in the tournament man..i saw a black belt break 3 boards in one jump....back flip and break a board in the air....break a board wif 540 degrees roundhouse..(for those of u who don noe wad a 540 round house is...check google mayb they show u..its damn cool)...
i just watched my family home video...taken abt a year ago..for some reason it feels like so looong time ago man...all just because of a different lifestyle...i remember it was at abt 340pm in my first evening here tht it suddenly really full blow struck me of the fact tht im actually going to college...and for the first time in my life im alone...literally..theres no one i can seriously hang out wif...no one to eat wif in the cafetaria wif etc etc...its hard...seriously..but for some reason even now when i already hav quite a number of friends compared to abt 2 months ago...i still tend to compare here and spore for some reason...i keep saying 'oh however close they might b...they can nv b like my sporean friends.'...its bad thinking..very bad thinking...its probably the reason y i cant get closer to them...bcos i keep comparing between the 2...and bcos of the comparison...even when they get close...my mind will unconsciously push them away...saying 'no they shldnt b this close'....its nuts sometimes...like i want to hav close friends..but for some reason when they do get closer i unconsciously push them away...
one of the reasons y i seem to hav difficulty mixing wif friends here is tht i seem to take making friends as some sort of a chore...wilson is the one who smacked tht on me abt 2 weeks ago...and he also said tht its either im not making an effort or they don like me tht cause my alienation....it mayb a little harsh...but its somewad true tht i may not be making enuff effort...but i also don want to make making friends as some sort of a chore...cos ppl can immediately see tht im not sincere and stuffs like tht...i hav no idea how to balance it...i seem to miss the andrew matthews book manual on making friends...but then again it will seem as some sort of a chore..i want it to b something natural, u noe...like i can tok normally to them without feeling tht i hav to noe more abt them so tht i can get into his or her social circle or something...sometimes i thought it mayb the unconscious and conscious part of the mind..like when u r unconscious of the fact tht u want to make friends..u actually naturally click wif them...but when u r consciously making effort to make friends..then theres some kind of feeling tht the other party sense it...and its not really good...am i making any sense here???..wahaha,..i tend to do tht here for some reason...i realise im getting the american accent in my speech already...but its somekind of switch thts only turned on when im toking to a person wif american accent...but if im talking wif lets say my indonesian or malaysian or sporean friends...the accent switch is turned off...automatic kind of thing...but its better la...(there u go..i hav not lost the ultimate 'la' havent i..)...anyway its better cos if i come back wif an american accent..for some reason if i may seem like a different person...yea go figure...its natural law..wahaha...
i got into some other ppls' blog last week...and for some reason seeing how ppl are in real life is different from mayb when they r alone...writing a blog entry for example...i was just switching channels last week when i got into one movie(u don want to noe wad movie it is...its so freakin cheesy)...but i got one good quote right when i switch to it...the guy says 'Why r u leading 2 separate lives when u can lead one fulfilling one?'...for some reason tht got me thinking...like the famous (old fashion) qst of "who am i?"...don tell me ur name...ur characters wadever,..but i myself don noe wad categories does the answer come under...don noe la...i myself also tend to think and reflect a lot at times (did u notice?...wahahaha)....most of the times i will just recall memories...its like some kind of archives from my mind...movie archives...then i just take out one episode and play it...sometimes i can derive some kind of lesson from it...or just watch it for fun...sometimes if i miss those times..i will look at the photos...ppl may think tht by looking at photos it will make things worst..but it actually makes things better...like for example when im leaving for US...from dunno when i already set my mind...i don want any of my friends to come when i leave the for US...but then for some reason at tht time when im leaving...i actually appreciate them a lot for being there for me...really...tht morning when i packed my last minute stuff...my heart is like at quite a low point...and the only thing thts keeping it from going lower and to the point where i cant handle it anymore is the fact tht im going to see my family and friends again b4 i leave...its tht supportive feeling tht helped me through..like feeling tht theres will always be someone for me to fall back on when the challenge ahead seems too daunting...trust me u don noe how much i appreciate tht feeling...
Hav u ever had a time when u r completely alone..?..i mean as in literally..no one is arnd u...no distraction wadsoever...and u r just concentrating on one thing?...its amazing how peaceful it can b...now at the moment its 1 am and i only hav one light on...im alone in the room wif my laptop...its really very peaceful...to help mayb u can listen to soft music...its like theres this feeling no one in the world can bother me...i kinda hav been doing tht for some time...usually its just me and the laptop or me and a storybook....seriously peaceful man...give it a shot some time and enjoy the peace and tranquility....=)
i just watched my family home video...taken abt a year ago..for some reason it feels like so looong time ago man...all just because of a different lifestyle...i remember it was at abt 340pm in my first evening here tht it suddenly really full blow struck me of the fact tht im actually going to college...and for the first time in my life im alone...literally..theres no one i can seriously hang out wif...no one to eat wif in the cafetaria wif etc etc...its hard...seriously..but for some reason even now when i already hav quite a number of friends compared to abt 2 months ago...i still tend to compare here and spore for some reason...i keep saying 'oh however close they might b...they can nv b like my sporean friends.'...its bad thinking..very bad thinking...its probably the reason y i cant get closer to them...bcos i keep comparing between the 2...and bcos of the comparison...even when they get close...my mind will unconsciously push them away...saying 'no they shldnt b this close'....its nuts sometimes...like i want to hav close friends..but for some reason when they do get closer i unconsciously push them away...
one of the reasons y i seem to hav difficulty mixing wif friends here is tht i seem to take making friends as some sort of a chore...wilson is the one who smacked tht on me abt 2 weeks ago...and he also said tht its either im not making an effort or they don like me tht cause my alienation....it mayb a little harsh...but its somewad true tht i may not be making enuff effort...but i also don want to make making friends as some sort of a chore...cos ppl can immediately see tht im not sincere and stuffs like tht...i hav no idea how to balance it...i seem to miss the andrew matthews book manual on making friends...but then again it will seem as some sort of a chore..i want it to b something natural, u noe...like i can tok normally to them without feeling tht i hav to noe more abt them so tht i can get into his or her social circle or something...sometimes i thought it mayb the unconscious and conscious part of the mind..like when u r unconscious of the fact tht u want to make friends..u actually naturally click wif them...but when u r consciously making effort to make friends..then theres some kind of feeling tht the other party sense it...and its not really good...am i making any sense here???..wahaha,..i tend to do tht here for some reason...i realise im getting the american accent in my speech already...but its somekind of switch thts only turned on when im toking to a person wif american accent...but if im talking wif lets say my indonesian or malaysian or sporean friends...the accent switch is turned off...automatic kind of thing...but its better la...(there u go..i hav not lost the ultimate 'la' havent i..)...anyway its better cos if i come back wif an american accent..for some reason if i may seem like a different person...yea go figure...its natural law..wahaha...
i got into some other ppls' blog last week...and for some reason seeing how ppl are in real life is different from mayb when they r alone...writing a blog entry for example...i was just switching channels last week when i got into one movie(u don want to noe wad movie it is...its so freakin cheesy)...but i got one good quote right when i switch to it...the guy says 'Why r u leading 2 separate lives when u can lead one fulfilling one?'...for some reason tht got me thinking...like the famous (old fashion) qst of "who am i?"...don tell me ur name...ur characters wadever,..but i myself don noe wad categories does the answer come under...don noe la...i myself also tend to think and reflect a lot at times (did u notice?...wahahaha)....most of the times i will just recall memories...its like some kind of archives from my mind...movie archives...then i just take out one episode and play it...sometimes i can derive some kind of lesson from it...or just watch it for fun...sometimes if i miss those times..i will look at the photos...ppl may think tht by looking at photos it will make things worst..but it actually makes things better...like for example when im leaving for US...from dunno when i already set my mind...i don want any of my friends to come when i leave the for US...but then for some reason at tht time when im leaving...i actually appreciate them a lot for being there for me...really...tht morning when i packed my last minute stuff...my heart is like at quite a low point...and the only thing thts keeping it from going lower and to the point where i cant handle it anymore is the fact tht im going to see my family and friends again b4 i leave...its tht supportive feeling tht helped me through..like feeling tht theres will always be someone for me to fall back on when the challenge ahead seems too daunting...trust me u don noe how much i appreciate tht feeling...
Hav u ever had a time when u r completely alone..?..i mean as in literally..no one is arnd u...no distraction wadsoever...and u r just concentrating on one thing?...its amazing how peaceful it can b...now at the moment its 1 am and i only hav one light on...im alone in the room wif my laptop...its really very peaceful...to help mayb u can listen to soft music...its like theres this feeling no one in the world can bother me...i kinda hav been doing tht for some time...usually its just me and the laptop or me and a storybook....seriously peaceful man...give it a shot some time and enjoy the peace and tranquility....=)
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 9:35 PM
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Basketball, Martial Arts, Personal Development, Smallville, Superman, Southpark, Authentic Asian food (pls no sweet and sour chicken wif fried rice..im starting to get sick of it), Snowing days (its beautiful =) ), Fantasy and medieval stories, Rasberry ice lemon tea (wahahaha..it replaced green tea here)
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