Saturday, March 25, 2006
hello ppl...=)...first week back suddenly all the work pile up...last wed killing man..history paper assignment i hav to rush...then monday got math test...theology thesis and engl paper 4 draft,...argh...cant wait for the semester to end....haiz and i just found out im not going back for summer...='(...i was quite looking forward to it...the thing tht helped me out of it is the fact tht im probably going to new york to watch phantom of the opera...and take some other course or something... and today lunch i ate sooo much tht even angmoh shocked...i ate omelette...scrambled eggs..4 small sausages...one plate of big waffel....fruit cocktail...peaches wif scottish cheese...one glass of milk and a glass of apple juice...its the most i hav ever eaten in a single meal here b4...heh i guess my metabolism buringing too fast...and i probably gain weight already...=P
i watch part of the movie 'my girl'..heh cos theres nothing much on tv anyway,...but sometimes i really find it relaxing watching family-friendly movies...anyway its a movie abt this girl who goes abt her life with a father and her mum passed away...well yea managing and spending the life of a child in the US neighbourhood...(i wanna emphasize on the US neighbourhood cos growing up in spore is completely different..at least from my perspective)...anyway her life is just so simple...going to school...riding bikes...spending time with her best bookworm friend...fishing...chatting under the tree beside a lake...its just all so simple and innocent...like nothing in the world mattered anymore..i guess our parents r rite when they say when we r young its like the best time of our lives huh..but its really a time where we all cant get back...last time its just study(if u want) and play...so simple...now its something like study(or ur out) and play(if u hav time)....its just really a change of things...many things...
"Raising a child is the hardest job in the world, but its the most rewarding of them all."....i got this from a quote in smallville(again)..hahaha...this parenthood has been a big part of my development last year abt october..heh thts when i spent time with my little buddy reyner...hahaha..amusing little fellow...i felt uncomfortable arnd him the first time bcos i dunno how to respond to his actions..(hes a toddler)...so hes kinda playing and all...but after a while i got used to it and played wif him...and i enjoyed it..haha...soemtimes toddlers and babies just express their love so openly tht u r even caught by surprise..but its a very rare feeling...to hav someone depend on u fully...heh i just remembered one event tht actually sparked this friendship wif me and him...it was during dinner outside near the singapore river..so after the dinner since hes too active to sit tight while the rest of the adults were chatting..i volunteered to take him for a walk...a very long walk...he kept running and running so far ..so when i took him back his parents were so worried tht i feel so bad...im like "oh damn"...then after tht for some reason he somewad take me as my big brother..(yes i am already a big brother but its quite different when u hav a toddler as ur smaller sibling)...im probably posting a picture of him in my friendster profile...don judge by his mischievous look..hes naughty in a way but also fun in tht way...=)...
heh im actually keeping pointers now on how to be a good parent...(so early??)...ok wadever...but it comes to smallville again...seriously man...it has a lot of good role models...clark as a person..his parents as ..well..parents..well the girls side i dunno cos i just model after clark and his dad...the way i see it his family has really his very strong bond among each other...u can say its unbreakable...now i keep on searching wad is the thing thts keeping them together..well u can say love but i tink it goes deeper than tht...and being able to raising such a good kid too...well for one thing i saw is tht they let him make his own choices when he is mature enuff...let him b independent..well yea i saw tht too when i observe other families teach their child...like letting them walk their own or climbing down the steps without holding the toddler's hand...but their parents always and ever ready to catch the child in case he loses balance and falls...well i will probably found out more in the long run...im still got a loooong way to go !!..wahahaha...
for some reason i realise thts its easier to help other ppl than to help urself...i mean just look at clark..he save a person in every single episode...but in every single episode hes always troubled with his own matters tht wif even all the powers he has he cant fix it...its so ironic...sometimes i tink helping someone else provides a way out of our own problems...we feel tht we can cover our own problems wif other ppl's so tht we wont feel so guilty running away from ours...heh sometimes i tink i think too much..wahahaha...heh keeps the brain healthy...=)
i watch part of the movie 'my girl'..heh cos theres nothing much on tv anyway,...but sometimes i really find it relaxing watching family-friendly movies...anyway its a movie abt this girl who goes abt her life with a father and her mum passed away...well yea managing and spending the life of a child in the US neighbourhood...(i wanna emphasize on the US neighbourhood cos growing up in spore is completely different..at least from my perspective)...anyway her life is just so simple...going to school...riding bikes...spending time with her best bookworm friend...fishing...chatting under the tree beside a lake...its just all so simple and innocent...like nothing in the world mattered anymore..i guess our parents r rite when they say when we r young its like the best time of our lives huh..but its really a time where we all cant get back...last time its just study(if u want) and play...so simple...now its something like study(or ur out) and play(if u hav time)....its just really a change of things...many things...
"Raising a child is the hardest job in the world, but its the most rewarding of them all."....i got this from a quote in smallville(again)..hahaha...this parenthood has been a big part of my development last year abt october..heh thts when i spent time with my little buddy reyner...hahaha..amusing little fellow...i felt uncomfortable arnd him the first time bcos i dunno how to respond to his actions..(hes a toddler)...so hes kinda playing and all...but after a while i got used to it and played wif him...and i enjoyed it..haha...soemtimes toddlers and babies just express their love so openly tht u r even caught by surprise..but its a very rare feeling...to hav someone depend on u fully...heh i just remembered one event tht actually sparked this friendship wif me and him...it was during dinner outside near the singapore river..so after the dinner since hes too active to sit tight while the rest of the adults were chatting..i volunteered to take him for a walk...a very long walk...he kept running and running so far ..so when i took him back his parents were so worried tht i feel so bad...im like "oh damn"...then after tht for some reason he somewad take me as my big brother..(yes i am already a big brother but its quite different when u hav a toddler as ur smaller sibling)...im probably posting a picture of him in my friendster profile...don judge by his mischievous look..hes naughty in a way but also fun in tht way...=)...
heh im actually keeping pointers now on how to be a good parent...(so early??)...ok wadever...but it comes to smallville again...seriously man...it has a lot of good role models...clark as a person..his parents as ..well..parents..well the girls side i dunno cos i just model after clark and his dad...the way i see it his family has really his very strong bond among each other...u can say its unbreakable...now i keep on searching wad is the thing thts keeping them together..well u can say love but i tink it goes deeper than tht...and being able to raising such a good kid too...well for one thing i saw is tht they let him make his own choices when he is mature enuff...let him b independent..well yea i saw tht too when i observe other families teach their child...like letting them walk their own or climbing down the steps without holding the toddler's hand...but their parents always and ever ready to catch the child in case he loses balance and falls...well i will probably found out more in the long run...im still got a loooong way to go !!..wahahaha...
for some reason i realise thts its easier to help other ppl than to help urself...i mean just look at clark..he save a person in every single episode...but in every single episode hes always troubled with his own matters tht wif even all the powers he has he cant fix it...its so ironic...sometimes i tink helping someone else provides a way out of our own problems...we feel tht we can cover our own problems wif other ppl's so tht we wont feel so guilty running away from ours...heh sometimes i tink i think too much..wahahaha...heh keeps the brain healthy...=)
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 9:09 PM
Saturday, March 18, 2006
hey ppl..=)...damn i just spent quite some time doing my history paper...really a bit headache...but im glad i started on it at least...and spring break is over man...=(...this week is quite a break...bought some things tht really make me happy..hahaha...on monday i bought the david edding books...4 books but it totalled to abt 80 bucks(US $)....well its my own money tht i bought it wif..and its really worth it..cos its some kind of collector's edition kind of thing..and bcome very precious to me..hahaha...then i bought 2 shoes...soccer and basketball...soccer i just bought the cheapest there is since i wont be using it as often as the basketball one...i broke the chain of wad i tot i want to collect all the tmac...but i got a d-wade now which is not so bad...heh i will show it to u when we meet...=)...
theres really this thing abt helping ppl u noe...in the movies sometimes it seems so simple to help ppl...usually emotionally...cos physically we can just dive into somebody's rescue rite...but most of the time helping emotionally just seems so hard...at least it is to me...im not sure abt u...sometimes u can say the person don want to be helped..cos sometimes i see someone in constant pain...almost a desperation to escape the situation...and its crazy sometimes feeling tht im witnessing this very thing happening rite in front of me and theres nothing i can do abt it...thts the part tht drives me crazy...sometimes u tink its just soemthing the person has to go through alone in life...but i don believe tht...no problem has to be solved alone...its only in the part where u hav to confront the problem tht u hav to do it alone...the analogy of 'i can show u the door, but u r the one tht hav to walk thru it.'....but sometimes for me i face the hesitation of asking someone how is the problem going and some sort like tht...i don want to be the one to remind them of the problem u noe...like lets say someone just cried...and after the person stopped crying...i don noe whether to say how is he or she feelng or just change the subject and talk abt something else...(if u hav any pointers abt this...leave it in the tagbox)...
Smallville has really been instilling some of its characteristics in me man..hahaha...i just realise it when i chat wif harry some time last week...he was saying something abt u will realise more abt the matter if u ask someone else for opinion...its something like tht cos i cant really reveal wadever was being said..anyway i unconsciously said tht i rather find abt it alone and judge it according to me...and one other thing tht i forgot..=P..hahahaha...anyway im not showing off here...wad im saying tht very small things can change u...well im repeating wad i said abt 2 weeks or a week ago...but its really cannot b emphasized enuff...small things like wad u read...the music u listen to...the programs u watch on tv...the type of outfits or clothes u usually wear...they (99%) reflect who u r as a person..cos they hav the potential to change u...i feel tht the david eddings books really do hav quite an impact on me...cos i was spending a whole lot of time reading it when i was reading it for the very first time...i was consciously analysing the characteristics of how a confident and funny person should act and carry himself just by reading the characters of the story....cos tht time was the early stage of my personal development age...so i was sometimes practising it in reality...trial and error method all the way...
this kinda brings me to my next point..im not sure if i brought this up in any of my entries b4,...but ' The level of challenges that you are facing now is such that you are well-equipped enuff from past experiences to deal wif the present challenges'....another saying to explain this is ' As you get better, the games get more difficult.'...believe it or not...im always falling back to this very quote everytime i want to emotionally crumble down here...it unconsciously strengthens my spirits cos theres this particular belief that if i hav gone through something like this b4..now is just a little harder...if not for this quote man...well u get the point...i just thought of another saying that has a similar meaning to previous one...'A person will not see what he is to see until he is ready for it'....like something would not come into ur precious life unless u r ready for it...wadever this thing is...it cannot be so difficult tht u cannot handle it...and keep in mind tht theres always ppl arnd u to help u...the great creator himself would not b so evil to put something in ur life tht u cannot handle..hes not THT mean...wahahaha....eveything happens for a reason...sometimes if u look hard enuff...theres a purpose in every friend u hav....whether to help u thru a problem...just to hang out wif...crap arnd wif...theres a reason...the harsh reality is tht if he or she has no purpose in ur cause or u don hav a purpose in his or her course....the both of u would not be close friends at all....but remember...the word purpose sometimes can be reflected so 'chimly' (i just invented tht word out of the blue..yea i noe im creative) tht u can b searching high and low but still found none...but purposes like just being a friend where u can tok to...play sports wif..discuss studies...ALL these are purposes...im actually kinda wondering now if im actually thinking too much abt these stuffs..wahahaha...but its fun sometimes..gives the brain something to do...cos too much academic stuffs in ur head sometimes can drive u crazy....so for those of u who r wondering how i can study for so long periods of time and still did not get the grades thts ideal to the studying time..well theres my reason..hahaha..im making it sound bad...but i don really regret it...it makes me who i am today...=)
theres really this thing abt helping ppl u noe...in the movies sometimes it seems so simple to help ppl...usually emotionally...cos physically we can just dive into somebody's rescue rite...but most of the time helping emotionally just seems so hard...at least it is to me...im not sure abt u...sometimes u can say the person don want to be helped..cos sometimes i see someone in constant pain...almost a desperation to escape the situation...and its crazy sometimes feeling tht im witnessing this very thing happening rite in front of me and theres nothing i can do abt it...thts the part tht drives me crazy...sometimes u tink its just soemthing the person has to go through alone in life...but i don believe tht...no problem has to be solved alone...its only in the part where u hav to confront the problem tht u hav to do it alone...the analogy of 'i can show u the door, but u r the one tht hav to walk thru it.'....but sometimes for me i face the hesitation of asking someone how is the problem going and some sort like tht...i don want to be the one to remind them of the problem u noe...like lets say someone just cried...and after the person stopped crying...i don noe whether to say how is he or she feelng or just change the subject and talk abt something else...(if u hav any pointers abt this...leave it in the tagbox)...
Smallville has really been instilling some of its characteristics in me man..hahaha...i just realise it when i chat wif harry some time last week...he was saying something abt u will realise more abt the matter if u ask someone else for opinion...its something like tht cos i cant really reveal wadever was being said..anyway i unconsciously said tht i rather find abt it alone and judge it according to me...and one other thing tht i forgot..=P..hahahaha...anyway im not showing off here...wad im saying tht very small things can change u...well im repeating wad i said abt 2 weeks or a week ago...but its really cannot b emphasized enuff...small things like wad u read...the music u listen to...the programs u watch on tv...the type of outfits or clothes u usually wear...they (99%) reflect who u r as a person..cos they hav the potential to change u...i feel tht the david eddings books really do hav quite an impact on me...cos i was spending a whole lot of time reading it when i was reading it for the very first time...i was consciously analysing the characteristics of how a confident and funny person should act and carry himself just by reading the characters of the story....cos tht time was the early stage of my personal development age...so i was sometimes practising it in reality...trial and error method all the way...
this kinda brings me to my next point..im not sure if i brought this up in any of my entries b4,...but ' The level of challenges that you are facing now is such that you are well-equipped enuff from past experiences to deal wif the present challenges'....another saying to explain this is ' As you get better, the games get more difficult.'...believe it or not...im always falling back to this very quote everytime i want to emotionally crumble down here...it unconsciously strengthens my spirits cos theres this particular belief that if i hav gone through something like this b4..now is just a little harder...if not for this quote man...well u get the point...i just thought of another saying that has a similar meaning to previous one...'A person will not see what he is to see until he is ready for it'....like something would not come into ur precious life unless u r ready for it...wadever this thing is...it cannot be so difficult tht u cannot handle it...and keep in mind tht theres always ppl arnd u to help u...the great creator himself would not b so evil to put something in ur life tht u cannot handle..hes not THT mean...wahahaha....eveything happens for a reason...sometimes if u look hard enuff...theres a purpose in every friend u hav....whether to help u thru a problem...just to hang out wif...crap arnd wif...theres a reason...the harsh reality is tht if he or she has no purpose in ur cause or u don hav a purpose in his or her course....the both of u would not be close friends at all....but remember...the word purpose sometimes can be reflected so 'chimly' (i just invented tht word out of the blue..yea i noe im creative) tht u can b searching high and low but still found none...but purposes like just being a friend where u can tok to...play sports wif..discuss studies...ALL these are purposes...im actually kinda wondering now if im actually thinking too much abt these stuffs..wahahaha...but its fun sometimes..gives the brain something to do...cos too much academic stuffs in ur head sometimes can drive u crazy....so for those of u who r wondering how i can study for so long periods of time and still did not get the grades thts ideal to the studying time..well theres my reason..hahaha..im making it sound bad...but i don really regret it...it makes me who i am today...=)
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 11:08 PM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
heys people...now in a different room typing....since now spring break starts i probably hav this room for the next week...yipee...haha..its quite a change from my mccormick dorm room...i hav my own bathroom...and a lot more extra room...only one thing lacking here... : pillow. damn kuku one la...i tot got pillow..now tonight i probably use clothes as my pillow...wahaha..
i really don like the feeling of being pitied...its more pathetic than if i hav the feeling of self-victimisation in me...it went like this..since i hav not much places to eat this afternoon i decided to go for a 'little' walk to a restaurant the indos here usually go for meals...so i asked one of them how to get there and so i walked on my own...if u want to noe how 'short' it is...in total i probably walked half the length of singapore...in the restaurant i could feel my leg muscles vibrating...now the pitying part is tht im now probably seen as an antisocial...walking arnd on my own and this kind of thing...so the indos kinda ask each other to invite me out or something...now don get me wrong..im not angry at them...i appreciate them a lot for inviting me out to dinner and movies...on the contrary..im actually angry at myself...i can nv imagine tht i can actually be so...erm...antisocial...i don enjoy being alone at first..but after a while im so used to it tht i actually enjoyed being alone...alone at meals...in the room...wadever...now tht fire of wanting to breakout of this pathetic state of mine is probably sparked again...i really don want it to vanish...cos when i see the general college students here...they r actually having the time of their life... i noe cos i went to a small birthday party few days ago...and they r all like laughing and enjoying themself..now at this moment...i realized (cos im not particularly engaged in any conversation)...its actually me..not the environment..i mean..if the westerns r enjoying themself its ok cos its a amiliar environment for them..but some asians there r also enjoying themselves...so it does actually struck me at the fact tht im in the 'victim' mode...i blame the new environment for everything...the word 'antisocial' has been repeatedly occuring in my mind..i even hav one person say tht to me...(in a joking way, but still)...
sometimes i wonder how did i manage to make so many friends(relatively) in spore...i looked and thought back...i even watched movies like mr deeds...he got something in common wif me...he is new in town...for him it is his good-nature tht won him many friends...well thts a movie..but sometimes here its just hard..now i know many ppl...but its all in the 'hi-bye' kind of thing...so i nv got to noe them really better...like in spore i can just talk to some of my closer grp of friends anything...its just different here...lol i was abt to blame the fact tht im a lot younger than them...but i tink its already a fact tht im in college..so i hav to play on the same lvl wif them...regardless of my age..its funny cos just yesterday one of the girls i meet in the birthday party ask me 'How old r u?...u seem kinda older...'...i luffed when she said tht and one of my friends helped me answer 'He is 17'...and her eyes go wide and said 'get out of town!'...tht doesnt mean literally...its just a way of being shocked...and if u want to make an issue of a girl-boy relationship blossoming...u can push it away cos we r just barely knew each other...and the matter of boy-girl relationship here is almost as rampant as spore...
i just found a book tht i read abt 4 years ago...im so excited when i found it in the library...i straight away go back to my dorm and read the book ...first night i finshed 100 pages...its just so good...cos this fantasy based book...i tink its not like any other..usually a fantasy book will hav a subject matter..which usually is a quest for some valuable object...now this particular book...the author focuses on the relationship between the characters...and the quest become a secondary priority...and this makes the read so enjoyable becos the characters r so cheeky wif one another...i even created a cast tht i will hav if i were to create the movie....
Althalus- Johny Depp
Dweia / Emmy- Liv Tyler (lord of the rings)
Eliar- Hayden Christensen (star wars)
Andine- Kristen Kreuk (smallville)
Bheid- dunno yet
Leitha- Naomi Watts (king kong)
Gher- Jake Lloyd (anakin in star wars 1 )
hehe..some casts eh?..well i really do encourage u to pick up the book..its called " The Redemption of Althalus"...don get fooled by the cover..cos i noe the cover of the book is a bit evil and those type..thts wad i though when i pick it up..i don like the evil type but its becos of the author tht i pick up and read the book...David Eddings has written quite a number of fantasy books..and in my opinion he is a better writer than Jrr Tolkien...i wont spoil it for u..=)..
Yea man i learn another thing abt courage this week....its 2 events tht helped me...first is during tkd tht i sparred...first time i had point sparring..means u get a point if u hit an opponent's chest...well it didnt go so well at first cos when the match started and i charged in..my dear brother got hit squarely man...yea u can laugh...-_-lll....heh my opponent go a warning..then after tht i give it my all...but i still lost in overtime sudden death...cos we brought the match to a tie..he won 2-3...but he and i r good friends so its nothing personal...after tht the other ppl r like praising us for the great fight....another event is during saturday when i played late night soccer...soccer is not my thing at all..to prove tht fact ..im the only one wearing basketball shoes on the field...quite ridiculous..but then i ran like hell again and i actually managed to score a goal...wad i learned is tht after a while it doesnt matter how good or bad some ppl r at somethings..but when they give their best shot...they definitely will be rewarded for the effort...it wins respect of all things...trust me...give it a shot next time...=)
i really don like the feeling of being pitied...its more pathetic than if i hav the feeling of self-victimisation in me...it went like this..since i hav not much places to eat this afternoon i decided to go for a 'little' walk to a restaurant the indos here usually go for meals...so i asked one of them how to get there and so i walked on my own...if u want to noe how 'short' it is...in total i probably walked half the length of singapore...in the restaurant i could feel my leg muscles vibrating...now the pitying part is tht im now probably seen as an antisocial...walking arnd on my own and this kind of thing...so the indos kinda ask each other to invite me out or something...now don get me wrong..im not angry at them...i appreciate them a lot for inviting me out to dinner and movies...on the contrary..im actually angry at myself...i can nv imagine tht i can actually be so...erm...antisocial...i don enjoy being alone at first..but after a while im so used to it tht i actually enjoyed being alone...alone at meals...in the room...wadever...now tht fire of wanting to breakout of this pathetic state of mine is probably sparked again...i really don want it to vanish...cos when i see the general college students here...they r actually having the time of their life... i noe cos i went to a small birthday party few days ago...and they r all like laughing and enjoying themself..now at this moment...i realized (cos im not particularly engaged in any conversation)...its actually me..not the environment..i mean..if the westerns r enjoying themself its ok cos its a amiliar environment for them..but some asians there r also enjoying themselves...so it does actually struck me at the fact tht im in the 'victim' mode...i blame the new environment for everything...the word 'antisocial' has been repeatedly occuring in my mind..i even hav one person say tht to me...(in a joking way, but still)...
sometimes i wonder how did i manage to make so many friends(relatively) in spore...i looked and thought back...i even watched movies like mr deeds...he got something in common wif me...he is new in town...for him it is his good-nature tht won him many friends...well thts a movie..but sometimes here its just hard..now i know many ppl...but its all in the 'hi-bye' kind of thing...so i nv got to noe them really better...like in spore i can just talk to some of my closer grp of friends anything...its just different here...lol i was abt to blame the fact tht im a lot younger than them...but i tink its already a fact tht im in college..so i hav to play on the same lvl wif them...regardless of my age..its funny cos just yesterday one of the girls i meet in the birthday party ask me 'How old r u?...u seem kinda older...'...i luffed when she said tht and one of my friends helped me answer 'He is 17'...and her eyes go wide and said 'get out of town!'...tht doesnt mean literally...its just a way of being shocked...and if u want to make an issue of a girl-boy relationship blossoming...u can push it away cos we r just barely knew each other...and the matter of boy-girl relationship here is almost as rampant as spore...
i just found a book tht i read abt 4 years ago...im so excited when i found it in the library...i straight away go back to my dorm and read the book ...first night i finshed 100 pages...its just so good...cos this fantasy based book...i tink its not like any other..usually a fantasy book will hav a subject matter..which usually is a quest for some valuable object...now this particular book...the author focuses on the relationship between the characters...and the quest become a secondary priority...and this makes the read so enjoyable becos the characters r so cheeky wif one another...i even created a cast tht i will hav if i were to create the movie....
Althalus- Johny Depp
Dweia / Emmy- Liv Tyler (lord of the rings)
Eliar- Hayden Christensen (star wars)
Andine- Kristen Kreuk (smallville)
Bheid- dunno yet
Leitha- Naomi Watts (king kong)
Gher- Jake Lloyd (anakin in star wars 1 )
hehe..some casts eh?..well i really do encourage u to pick up the book..its called " The Redemption of Althalus"...don get fooled by the cover..cos i noe the cover of the book is a bit evil and those type..thts wad i though when i pick it up..i don like the evil type but its becos of the author tht i pick up and read the book...David Eddings has written quite a number of fantasy books..and in my opinion he is a better writer than Jrr Tolkien...i wont spoil it for u..=)..
Yea man i learn another thing abt courage this week....its 2 events tht helped me...first is during tkd tht i sparred...first time i had point sparring..means u get a point if u hit an opponent's chest...well it didnt go so well at first cos when the match started and i charged in..my dear brother got hit squarely man...yea u can laugh...-_-lll....heh my opponent go a warning..then after tht i give it my all...but i still lost in overtime sudden death...cos we brought the match to a tie..he won 2-3...but he and i r good friends so its nothing personal...after tht the other ppl r like praising us for the great fight....another event is during saturday when i played late night soccer...soccer is not my thing at all..to prove tht fact ..im the only one wearing basketball shoes on the field...quite ridiculous..but then i ran like hell again and i actually managed to score a goal...wad i learned is tht after a while it doesnt matter how good or bad some ppl r at somethings..but when they give their best shot...they definitely will be rewarded for the effort...it wins respect of all things...trust me...give it a shot next time...=)
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 12:51 AM
Saturday, March 04, 2006
hello ppl....been my birthday week...=)...its my birthday where i spend the day wif my favorite person allll day....me !...wahahaha..well thts wad i learnt at akltg camp...and im not the only one thts giving himself or herself credit...even adam khoo thank his other half for the journey in his book...well yea on the other hand i honestly hav to say tht i just don want to make it sound pathetic by saying i spend the whole day alone didnt i...but its always good to hav some time wif urself..just spend time...dream if u like...but its peaceful...bcos if we cant love ourself...how the heck r we going to love other ppl...harry said this once ' We cant give something we dont hav.'...yea well tht applies to this one...its just simply being ur own best friend....appreciating urself...well u may not understand wad im saying but if u do..good for u..=)
well this friday marks one of the most..er...remarkable things i did in my basketball 'career'...its like this...cos when me and the indos arrive there all the courts were kinda fiiled wif other ppl...no chinese except for abt the 5 of us there...so we just went arnd..and we got separated cos some courts needed 2 or 3 more to play...i 'fortunately' got into a game whereby im the only chinese playing...not to mention the smallest in size...wif 9 other big guys...its really kinda intimidating man...but it actually turns out to b quite good...i actually did a lay up past an african american...cos he was kinda laughing at me from the other end since he thought i was slow...well i shut him up wif the lay up anyway...then in another game wif the same guys i did a few lay ups which earned a comment i overheard from the guys..' man ! this guy is fearless !'....well u can say im showing off here,..but wait !...theres a huge humily lesson at the end...cos of the things tht i did during those 2 games..i kinda get a little overconfident...i was passing a ball to another guy when it gets stolen...and when i froze for a bit the guy shouted at me ' Boy ! defence !!'...tht was like a huge slap in the face man...i kinda get knocked out of my 'overconfidence'..(yea u can say 'serve u right' now..)...after the game i got a break since i was too tired...then kinda really thought abt tht game and the lesson i learnt...: Always b humble and know wads ur place in ur environment'....which means if u r a new comer..even though ppl seems to like u..don get cocky and funny..or the same thing will happen...ahaha..but its a fun game...learnt another big lesson abt humility in the US...
Do u ever get the feeling tht u r nursing a feeling tht is bound to hurt u...?..its ironic..it comes back to the quote i put in my post abt 2 weeks ago...its in love tht we discover hurt...its like...we nurse the feeling to get hurt..its like buying something tht is expired..and the worst thing is tht u noe its expired...thts really the worst part...er mayb thts not a really good analogy...heres another one...u buy a puppy tht is not in perfect condition..but the thing ..despite its condition...u hav faith in it..theres a connection which u believe deep down in ur heart the connection will grow into something special...and by just this belief and faith itself u want to put a lot of things at risk...in the puppy's case its a few hundred dollars while in the case of love...its putting ur heart on the line of fire...like i heard this quote somewhere...i dunno wads the exact words but i do my best to make sense..'if u love tht person, u will trust tht person with ur heart'....kinda sounds cheesy but its kinda true...i remembered a smallville scene whereby clark is to give an opening speech in a wedding and he said something which was actually directed at lana (he doesnt say it is of cos)...but he was looking at her when he said somthing like this...' When u feel it, u trust it...u allow it...u r willing to risk things for it bcos u noe tht this feeling is real'...i added the last bit...hahahaha....but its like tht...i tink it was yesterday tht i suddenly tink next time when someone ask me y i love someone....my reply will b 'its love...theres no reason enuff to support it...its just an irrational feeling..u cant reason wif it...Theres no logic for it..'
sometimes its just these small little things everyday tht can change our lives in the long run...i watch the anthony robbins video and there was one part when he said..' u r heading one direction and u r making a 10 degree shift and it may seem like nothing in the moment...but u continue tht change a month from now..6 months from now..10 yrs from now...u r in a totally different direction...'...just imagine a protractor...u r going 90 degrees direction...but u make a 3 degrees turn..it may seem nothing from the point....but if u take it a meter from the point u r in a completely different place...so sometimes u tink these small things u decide to change in ur life..like for example joggin everyday for a mile....in the long run u may hav a lot more stamina b4....so appreciate small changes...=)
well this friday marks one of the most..er...remarkable things i did in my basketball 'career'...its like this...cos when me and the indos arrive there all the courts were kinda fiiled wif other ppl...no chinese except for abt the 5 of us there...so we just went arnd..and we got separated cos some courts needed 2 or 3 more to play...i 'fortunately' got into a game whereby im the only chinese playing...not to mention the smallest in size...wif 9 other big guys...its really kinda intimidating man...but it actually turns out to b quite good...i actually did a lay up past an african american...cos he was kinda laughing at me from the other end since he thought i was slow...well i shut him up wif the lay up anyway...then in another game wif the same guys i did a few lay ups which earned a comment i overheard from the guys..' man ! this guy is fearless !'....well u can say im showing off here,..but wait !...theres a huge humily lesson at the end...cos of the things tht i did during those 2 games..i kinda get a little overconfident...i was passing a ball to another guy when it gets stolen...and when i froze for a bit the guy shouted at me ' Boy ! defence !!'...tht was like a huge slap in the face man...i kinda get knocked out of my 'overconfidence'..(yea u can say 'serve u right' now..)...after the game i got a break since i was too tired...then kinda really thought abt tht game and the lesson i learnt...: Always b humble and know wads ur place in ur environment'....which means if u r a new comer..even though ppl seems to like u..don get cocky and funny..or the same thing will happen...ahaha..but its a fun game...learnt another big lesson abt humility in the US...
Do u ever get the feeling tht u r nursing a feeling tht is bound to hurt u...?..its ironic..it comes back to the quote i put in my post abt 2 weeks ago...its in love tht we discover hurt...its like...we nurse the feeling to get hurt..its like buying something tht is expired..and the worst thing is tht u noe its expired...thts really the worst part...er mayb thts not a really good analogy...heres another one...u buy a puppy tht is not in perfect condition..but the thing ..despite its condition...u hav faith in it..theres a connection which u believe deep down in ur heart the connection will grow into something special...and by just this belief and faith itself u want to put a lot of things at risk...in the puppy's case its a few hundred dollars while in the case of love...its putting ur heart on the line of fire...like i heard this quote somewhere...i dunno wads the exact words but i do my best to make sense..'if u love tht person, u will trust tht person with ur heart'....kinda sounds cheesy but its kinda true...i remembered a smallville scene whereby clark is to give an opening speech in a wedding and he said something which was actually directed at lana (he doesnt say it is of cos)...but he was looking at her when he said somthing like this...' When u feel it, u trust it...u allow it...u r willing to risk things for it bcos u noe tht this feeling is real'...i added the last bit...hahahaha....but its like tht...i tink it was yesterday tht i suddenly tink next time when someone ask me y i love someone....my reply will b 'its love...theres no reason enuff to support it...its just an irrational feeling..u cant reason wif it...Theres no logic for it..'
sometimes its just these small little things everyday tht can change our lives in the long run...i watch the anthony robbins video and there was one part when he said..' u r heading one direction and u r making a 10 degree shift and it may seem like nothing in the moment...but u continue tht change a month from now..6 months from now..10 yrs from now...u r in a totally different direction...'...just imagine a protractor...u r going 90 degrees direction...but u make a 3 degrees turn..it may seem nothing from the point....but if u take it a meter from the point u r in a completely different place...so sometimes u tink these small things u decide to change in ur life..like for example joggin everyday for a mile....in the long run u may hav a lot more stamina b4....so appreciate small changes...=)
DanieL counted
snowflakes at 10:25 PM
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Name - Daniel_Widjaja
Age - 19
Ok this is me in a nutshell: reflective...hardworker...goofy humour...no sense of fashion(just common sense)...messy...hopeless romantic ;)...enthusiastic learner (depends on wad subject)...easygoing...loves family and friends...internet/msn addict...library bug...into fantasy stuffs...mugger...single-minded at times...AKLTG Alumni...can be kuku at certain subjects (fashion for example)...wahaha..ok thts however much i can describe me..my friends definitely hav more to add..be it good or bad...enjoy the visit in my blog !
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Places He Frequents By
The Superman Franchise/History Video
Superman Returns Full Trailer
akltg.com
NBA.com
Life Coaches Blog
Enlightenment.com
Slow Leadership.org
Anthony Robbins Motivational Video
Stuart Tan's Audio Programs
Marquette TKD Club
Crazy Martial Arts Videos
TED (Technology, Entertainment, Design)
Squidoo
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Evelyn
Suang
1Peace05
Sam Shen
Eric
Eugenie
Stuart Tan
Evan
Celine
Tan Yong
Amanda
Wendrey
Gregory
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Delta Goodrem
Wisdoms of Life
Favorites
Basketball, Martial Arts, Personal Development, Smallville, Superman, Southpark, Authentic Asian food (pls no sweet and sour chicken wif fried rice..im starting to get sick of it), Snowing days (its beautiful =) ), Fantasy and medieval stories, Rasberry ice lemon tea (wahahaha..it replaced green tea here)
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