Chronicles of a Young College Boy

Saturday, March 04, 2006

hello ppl....been my birthday week...=)...its my birthday where i spend the day wif my favorite person allll day....me !...wahahaha..well thts wad i learnt at akltg camp...and im not the only one thts giving himself or herself credit...even adam khoo thank his other half for the journey in his book...well yea on the other hand i honestly hav to say tht i just don want to make it sound pathetic by saying i spend the whole day alone didnt i...but its always good to hav some time wif urself..just spend time...dream if u like...but its peaceful...bcos if we cant love ourself...how the heck r we going to love other ppl...harry said this once ' We cant give something we dont hav.'...yea well tht applies to this one...its just simply being ur own best friend....appreciating urself...well u may not understand wad im saying but if u do..good for u..=)

well this friday marks one of the most..er...remarkable things i did in my basketball 'career'...its like this...cos when me and the indos arrive there all the courts were kinda fiiled wif other ppl...no chinese except for abt the 5 of us there...so we just went arnd..and we got separated cos some courts needed 2 or 3 more to play...i 'fortunately' got into a game whereby im the only chinese playing...not to mention the smallest in size...wif 9 other big guys...its really kinda intimidating man...but it actually turns out to b quite good...i actually did a lay up past an african american...cos he was kinda laughing at me from the other end since he thought i was slow...well i shut him up wif the lay up anyway...then in another game wif the same guys i did a few lay ups which earned a comment i overheard from the guys..' man ! this guy is fearless !'....well u can say im showing off here,..but wait !...theres a huge humily lesson at the end...cos of the things tht i did during those 2 games..i kinda get a little overconfident...i was passing a ball to another guy when it gets stolen...and when i froze for a bit the guy shouted at me ' Boy ! defence !!'...tht was like a huge slap in the face man...i kinda get knocked out of my 'overconfidence'..(yea u can say 'serve u right' now..)...after the game i got a break since i was too tired...then kinda really thought abt tht game and the lesson i learnt...: Always b humble and know wads ur place in ur environment'....which means if u r a new comer..even though ppl seems to like u..don get cocky and funny..or the same thing will happen...ahaha..but its a fun game...learnt another big lesson abt humility in the US...

Do u ever get the feeling tht u r nursing a feeling tht is bound to hurt u...?..its ironic..it comes back to the quote i put in my post abt 2 weeks ago...its in love tht we discover hurt...its like...we nurse the feeling to get hurt..its like buying something tht is expired..and the worst thing is tht u noe its expired...thts really the worst part...er mayb thts not a really good analogy...heres another one...u buy a puppy tht is not in perfect condition..but the thing ..despite its condition...u hav faith in it..theres a connection which u believe deep down in ur heart the connection will grow into something special...and by just this belief and faith itself u want to put a lot of things at risk...in the puppy's case its a few hundred dollars while in the case of love...its putting ur heart on the line of fire...like i heard this quote somewhere...i dunno wads the exact words but i do my best to make sense..'if u love tht person, u will trust tht person with ur heart'....kinda sounds cheesy but its kinda true...i remembered a smallville scene whereby clark is to give an opening speech in a wedding and he said something which was actually directed at lana (he doesnt say it is of cos)...but he was looking at her when he said somthing like this...' When u feel it, u trust it...u allow it...u r willing to risk things for it bcos u noe tht this feeling is real'...i added the last bit...hahahaha....but its like tht...i tink it was yesterday tht i suddenly tink next time when someone ask me y i love someone....my reply will b 'its love...theres no reason enuff to support it...its just an irrational feeling..u cant reason wif it...Theres no logic for it..'

sometimes its just these small little things everyday tht can change our lives in the long run...i watch the anthony robbins video and there was one part when he said..' u r heading one direction and u r making a 10 degree shift and it may seem like nothing in the moment...but u continue tht change a month from now..6 months from now..10 yrs from now...u r in a totally different direction...'...just imagine a protractor...u r going 90 degrees direction...but u make a 3 degrees turn..it may seem nothing from the point....but if u take it a meter from the point u r in a completely different place...so sometimes u tink these small things u decide to change in ur life..like for example joggin everyday for a mile....in the long run u may hav a lot more stamina b4....so appreciate small changes...=)

DanieL counted snowflakes at 10:25 PM