Chronicles of a Young College Boy

Sunday, March 12, 2006

heys people...now in a different room typing....since now spring break starts i probably hav this room for the next week...yipee...haha..its quite a change from my mccormick dorm room...i hav my own bathroom...and a lot more extra room...only one thing lacking here... : pillow. damn kuku one la...i tot got pillow..now tonight i probably use clothes as my pillow...wahaha..

i really don like the feeling of being pitied...its more pathetic than if i hav the feeling of self-victimisation in me...it went like this..since i hav not much places to eat this afternoon i decided to go for a 'little' walk to a restaurant the indos here usually go for meals...so i asked one of them how to get there and so i walked on my own...if u want to noe how 'short' it is...in total i probably walked half the length of singapore...in the restaurant i could feel my leg muscles vibrating...now the pitying part is tht im now probably seen as an antisocial...walking arnd on my own and this kind of thing...so the indos kinda ask each other to invite me out or something...now don get me wrong..im not angry at them...i appreciate them a lot for inviting me out to dinner and movies...on the contrary..im actually angry at myself...i can nv imagine tht i can actually be so...erm...antisocial...i don enjoy being alone at first..but after a while im so used to it tht i actually enjoyed being alone...alone at meals...in the room...wadever...now tht fire of wanting to breakout of this pathetic state of mine is probably sparked again...i really don want it to vanish...cos when i see the general college students here...they r actually having the time of their life... i noe cos i went to a small birthday party few days ago...and they r all like laughing and enjoying themself..now at this moment...i realized (cos im not particularly engaged in any conversation)...its actually me..not the environment..i mean..if the westerns r enjoying themself its ok cos its a amiliar environment for them..but some asians there r also enjoying themselves...so it does actually struck me at the fact tht im in the 'victim' mode...i blame the new environment for everything...the word 'antisocial' has been repeatedly occuring in my mind..i even hav one person say tht to me...(in a joking way, but still)...

sometimes i wonder how did i manage to make so many friends(relatively) in spore...i looked and thought back...i even watched movies like mr deeds...he got something in common wif me...he is new in town...for him it is his good-nature tht won him many friends...well thts a movie..but sometimes here its just hard..now i know many ppl...but its all in the 'hi-bye' kind of thing...so i nv got to noe them really better...like in spore i can just talk to some of my closer grp of friends anything...its just different here...lol i was abt to blame the fact tht im a lot younger than them...but i tink its already a fact tht im in college..so i hav to play on the same lvl wif them...regardless of my age..its funny cos just yesterday one of the girls i meet in the birthday party ask me 'How old r u?...u seem kinda older...'...i luffed when she said tht and one of my friends helped me answer 'He is 17'...and her eyes go wide and said 'get out of town!'...tht doesnt mean literally...its just a way of being shocked...and if u want to make an issue of a girl-boy relationship blossoming...u can push it away cos we r just barely knew each other...and the matter of boy-girl relationship here is almost as rampant as spore...

i just found a book tht i read abt 4 years ago...im so excited when i found it in the library...i straight away go back to my dorm and read the book ...first night i finshed 100 pages...its just so good...cos this fantasy based book...i tink its not like any other..usually a fantasy book will hav a subject matter..which usually is a quest for some valuable object...now this particular book...the author focuses on the relationship between the characters...and the quest become a secondary priority...and this makes the read so enjoyable becos the characters r so cheeky wif one another...i even created a cast tht i will hav if i were to create the movie....
Althalus- Johny Depp
Dweia / Emmy- Liv Tyler (lord of the rings)
Eliar- Hayden Christensen (star wars)
Andine- Kristen Kreuk (smallville)
Bheid- dunno yet
Leitha- Naomi Watts (king kong)
Gher- Jake Lloyd (anakin in star wars 1 )
hehe..some casts eh?..well i really do encourage u to pick up the book..its called " The Redemption of Althalus"...don get fooled by the cover..cos i noe the cover of the book is a bit evil and those type..thts wad i though when i pick it up..i don like the evil type but its becos of the author tht i pick up and read the book...David Eddings has written quite a number of fantasy books..and in my opinion he is a better writer than Jrr Tolkien...i wont spoil it for u..=)..

Yea man i learn another thing abt courage this week....its 2 events tht helped me...first is during tkd tht i sparred...first time i had point sparring..means u get a point if u hit an opponent's chest...well it didnt go so well at first cos when the match started and i charged in..my dear brother got hit squarely man...yea u can laugh...-_-lll....heh my opponent go a warning..then after tht i give it my all...but i still lost in overtime sudden death...cos we brought the match to a tie..he won 2-3...but he and i r good friends so its nothing personal...after tht the other ppl r like praising us for the great fight....another event is during saturday when i played late night soccer...soccer is not my thing at all..to prove tht fact ..im the only one wearing basketball shoes on the field...quite ridiculous..but then i ran like hell again and i actually managed to score a goal...wad i learned is tht after a while it doesnt matter how good or bad some ppl r at somethings..but when they give their best shot...they definitely will be rewarded for the effort...it wins respect of all things...trust me...give it a shot next time...=)

DanieL counted snowflakes at 12:51 AM