Chronicles of a Young College Boy

Saturday, April 08, 2006

aaah man...im just over wif one of ...or the most hectic week since i've been here...its nuts man...on monday i didnt thought i got tht much to do but then on tuesday i started jotting down the things i got...and i got pretty shocked...i got a history test on friday...engl test on thurs....theo assignment due friday...math hw due wed...and a bit more i forgot...its seriously sick...to make things worse...i got flu on thursday...i was like dying on thurday night man...then got hist test on friday morning...which could hav gone worse cos i gambled wif the qst tht might come out and i gambled right...but i was under flu tht morning so it could hav been better...oh ya my name got printed on the university newspaper !!...hehehe....its abt the tkd thing...they reported i got first in forms and breaking and second in sparring..pretty cool man..hahaha...and i also got a job interview on monday!!...heh first job ever...its called assistant building manager..sounds cool?...well wad i do is prepare for events...as in the physical part...like arranging tables and food....wahaha..cool name but the job kinda manual mostly...but im going to use this as a stepping stone to bigger jobs...so at least next time when i apply for more higher jobs i can boast abt job experience..hehehehe

this past week ive been kinda reading my past entries....u noe since january....and i realise tht there is quite a lot transitions going on there...i don really noe how to describe it...but there r really some changes..small ones like knowing how to draw out money from an atm machine...starting a bank account...how to do laundry..how to do a bit of groceries (consist of cookies, milk, shampoo, disposable utensils...cereal...wahahaha)...and big things...like how to not feel uncomfortable when eating alone in a cafetaria full of ppl...how to step outside comfort boundaries and feel tht its necessary...how to bring myself back up when i fall...realising fully tht family and friends are most important in my life...learning abt humility...stuffs like tht...
u noe..these things u might say its something we all r already expected to noe...but understanding and just knowing is 2 completely different things....for example...u noe tht we shld nv take our family and friends for granted...but u may nv understand it completely until the point whereby u r very far from them and cant see them face to face....its like yea i know im taught in akltg abt the importance of family and friends during the camp...but i really nv fully comprehend it until now...its like u really hav to be in tht position whereby u r waaayyy outside ur comfort boundary and u hav no one u noe to turn to....at this point u suddenly will say...'i hope my family and friends were here...'....and its a difficult process...but its necessary sometimes if u want to learn how to b indepedent...

i read a reading in my theo class last wed..and for the first time it makes sense and sparked tht interest in me...its actually the first time i told myself to keep on reading and not to take a nap...wahahaha...ahem..anyway...its generally abt the God being dependent or self-sufficient...i noe u guys r definitely screaming to me 'of coz self sufficient!'..but wait!....let me type down part of the reading... :

" An all-good being would presumably prevent evil only if it could do so without thereby preventing some greater good not possible without lesser evil. God would have created persons only out of his pure love for them amd desire to enter into a genuine relationship with them. Love presupposes, however, an object that exist in some way. If God created persons out of love for them, they must have pre-existed and in a mode more real than the manner in which ideas exist in the mind of mortals. Indeed if God desired our love, then he manifested a need essential to godhood--But God's manifesting any need is clearly incompatible with the concept of an absolute being. "

ok in short wad its saying tht if God is a perfect God...he must be an absolute being...self-sufficient...but then thts not wad i want to tok abt..cos if i tok abt this im probably gonna earn my ticket to hell faster cos im just not in the right place to talk abt theologic contradictions...my point is in the first sentence of tht paragraph and this quote from the reading..."The idea of static, absolute perfection must be replaced, with the idea of perfection as a dynamic creativity that acts to enhance the happiness of others and by so doing enhances its own happiness" doesnt it make perfect sense??...the realization of the quote 'For greater good to exist, there must be a lesser evil' was like jumping out of the reading and then printed itself on my brain when i was reading it...ok mayb i will use tht quote to make some examples...some of u guys now are probably starting in ur new school very soon rite..(my badge of sec 4s)...and u may ...or probably most definitely will feel scared and very uncomfortable going out of ur comfort boundary and into the unknown...and realise tht even though some ppl say its a good thing...the uncomfortable part is definitely the 'lesser evil' part ..bcos no one likes to feel uncomfortable and tht makes it some type of evil....then the 'greater good' comes into play when u got more familiar wif the surrounding...made new friends...mayb even met a new love or something...but theres the greater good...all the pieces now come together...(at least it is for me)....its like at tht moment when i was reading it in the library the pieces of puzzle come together perfectly....i hop it does the same for u guys...=)

heh i was watching smallville abt haf an hour ago(no comments pls) and i was listening very closely when clark has a conversation wif his dad....i finally pin down one of the very important things of a good parent...when lets say they r abt 12 or 13...a parent has to put their belief in them...faith of them making good choices...like for example if the child is unsure of wads going to happen if he or she is going to make the right or wrong choice in the future....a parent may tell the child...'i don noe when tht time will come or wad choices it might offer to u...but when the time comes...i believe tht u r going to do the right thing..'...makes sense? i noe it might sound a little cheesy but it does kinda hav a tremendous effect on the child...cos it teaches the child to grow up and make his or her own choices...cos if a parent is going to like say 'choose this..choose tht...do this...do tht...' until they r like youths...and when the parents r not arnd anymore...the child is going to say...' wad the hell am i going to do??'....now i wanna make this clear...if u r reading this and ur parents r doing the 'do this do tht' style...DO NOT blame them....im no expert on parenthood either (geez im 17 years old for pete's sake)...its just my opinion from my analysis from smallville...but if u tink wad i said is true and ur parents r doing the wrong way..again DO NOT blame them...take it as some kind of lesson...so tht one u can b ready when the time comes for u to make a choice...and also when u hav ur own child u would not do the less favorable way....parents...however bad they are...r still our parents and they deserve our love and utmost respect (this is wad i took away from akltg camp..=) ...)..

DanieL counted snowflakes at 10:56 PM