Chronicles of a Young College Boy

Saturday, May 13, 2006

BEER!!..hahahaha...i just came back from a birthday dinner wif my indo friends....they all kinda drank beer....since im the youngest there and naturally be the only one whos drinking lemonade....they kinda persuade me to try a little of beer....a whole bottle actually....its like when i was eating b4 i noe it i got a beer bottle in front of me...its probably abt the size of the smaller tiger beer bottle...but this one more slender....yea well not to be a spoilsport i drank it...i took it slwoly at one time...the feeling is like drinking sprite...but its just bitter...gassy bitter liquid...heh not very tasty...after i put it down for a while they ask me drink again by toasting..hahaha...well in the end i only finished abt till the end of the bottle neck...cant stand the taste...heh....so its ok la...im still not going to drink...since now i already drank beer and wine b4....i havent tried liquor...the guys say i will like liquor since different the taste....bacardi if im not wrong...dunno la...i wont be drinking anytime soon again...haha...
heh then this week i go pack my stuffs in my dorm room cos i moving out..when i taking out all my stuffs...it kinda brings me back to the time when i actually move into my dorm room in january....when i actually think of it...its actually been 6 months..i noe i hav said it in one of my previous post...but isnt it crazy how fast just time flies....its like some of the stuff i put in my drawer i nv take...then when i take out rite...every memory of tht day came rushing back to me...its like some kind of a video ...playing the time when i first came here and everything...its kinda bittersweet...bitter cos for some reason its the first room ever tht i hav complete access to...as in i hold the key....sweet cos im leaving the room also.....heh...cos i cant stand the building after a while...second reason is also the fact tht since time passes so damn fast...it will be soon when i step on sporean soil again....

this kinda brings me to my next point...all this while sometimes i've been kinda thinking...am i a sporean or an indo?...yea theoretically speaking im an indo...buuut....in my perspective i prefer to redefine which country u belong to....or where ur loyalties lie...i feel tht my loyalties lies in the place where i hav something to care for...a place where i feel comfortable in...a place where the people i love stays....and i feel tht the place is more like spore...now don get me wrong...my relatives are all still back in indo....but for me im not comfortable staying in indo...for some reason it just doesnt feel rite....theres no click...im just referring to the place ah...the relatives i hav them mostly in indo...indo for me it just qualifies as the place where the people i love stays....but spore on the other hand...qualifies for 2....where i feel comfortable in and where the people tht i care stays....the loyalties part i still don noe...its like i will describe indo a house...whereas spore a home...i've heard loads of ppl complaining abt the things in spore...but when i come here...it opens my eyes to quite number of things...i used to agree to some of the complaints...but here in the us...lets take taxes for example...when i go wif my friends for dinner tht all probably totalled up to 120 bucks...the taxes is like 20 bucks in total....i noe u will like 'thts bs!'..but thts the way things work here..in spore its like the tax we pay r so minimal for dinners tht its insubstantial....trust me....spore may not b perfect...but its a gd place...anyway i came to think of this a few days ago when i go for work...i got my name tag...it says..." Daniel", "Business Administration- Singapore."...now being an indonesian my mind fires off as..."wait...thts not right"...then as i work...i tink a bit...(yea well cos basically my work doesnt need tht much thinking.)...the appropriate thing is tht im an indonesian...but for some reason...the emotion side tend to tip toward singaporean...its like ... i don even noe how to describe it...u may be in tht position b4..its like ur mind tend to go towards one side while ur feelings go the opposite..

crap...now i don noe wad to write again...i just seen my 'report card'...kinda incomplete...but then so far i got 4 subjects back...eng A-...second eng A...math A-...theology B...now waiting for history...now my gpa is 3.455....if i get a C for history...which is quite possible...i will lose my scholarship....damn damn damn damn......even if i get a B-....my gpa is like 2.97...minimum requirement is 3.0 to keep the scholarship...argh....

DanieL counted snowflakes at 11:17 PM