Chronicles of a Young College Boy

Saturday, September 09, 2006

heya guys...heh this photo was taken about a year and haf ago...heh my dad told me i look like darth vader in this photo...hahaha anyway..this has been quite a week for me...for things to start off...last sunday first time i got drunk...being drunk actually feels worse...but for me..tht was drunk enough...hehe....ok it went like this...my friends called me up at 11 to ask me to come to one of my friends' place to surprise another friend for her birthday...we r gonna surprise her at 12am...so anyway...i came to her place...then a friend offered me a milkshake but with a bit of alcohol in it...so i drank it...and started to feel warm...so thts tht...then everyone drank beer...me being the youngest one...drank a sparkling with about 10% alcohol in it...its about the size of a small tiger beer bottle...so haf way through we all drank champagne...so not wanting to b a spoilsport...i drank it too...i started to feel so warm and a little giddy....then while everyone was drinking shots...i continued drinking the sparkling...its ironic bcos at this moment i was suddenly curious how does it feel to be drunk...anyway i continued to drink...until its finished...at THT point..i can hear the pulse beating in my head...i was so warm tht my arms is tomato-red...my eyes were half-closed...my friends were all kinda concerned bcos im known among my friends to b the young one and a person who cannot withstand alcohol...they r like 'stand up...walk arnd...drink water...'...then we watch a movie...i was like 'blleea...yeaa..im ok...' my eyes during those moments were like haf closed...even though i want to wide open my eyes...it cannot stay open for a second...so half throughout the movie...i decided to go back to my dorm room when i feel a little better...my stomach by then got tht warning of me gonna throw up...so yea i got back...luckily safely...luckily i did not throw up...but i was like gonna fall over anytime when i got back...so i hit my bed and slept..heh...interesting start to the week...

THEN...the most tragic and shocking news came in the morning...steve irwin passed away....well u noe how i feel abt the issue la...but yea it is tragic...a person actually said kinda...'don go into this line of work...'...but to me...it is actually some kind of inspiration...to me...i prefer to live a short but full of meaning like his...rather than a long but full of mediocre achievements...his death inspire me to want to achieve my goal even more...a few years back i wanted to open and manage my own nature park...but now i thought to myself...if i don hav the expertise...i cant really make tht much of an impact...or even worst i can screw up and end up destroying wad i want to save...so instead i reformed my goal...i will pump at least 1 million usd into a well-known conservation grp...like steve irwin's zoo or one of his conservation grps "Wildlife Warriors"...but yea...i figured with their help my money can be managed and used more effectively by the people who has been doing this for years better than me....but this goal will be accomplished when im 50...so damn it...its still quite a long way...but if i bcome successful earlier in life...i will pump the money into conservation...in the name of steve irwin...u noe wads the ironic thing...i imagined myself meeting steve irwin myself when i donated the money into his organisation...i imagined myself signing the contract and shaking hands with him...haiz..now its not possible...but im actually honored enough if i can just meet one of the members of his family...

A couple of weeks earlier i actually thought of wad purpose actually means...wad i read in the 'Purpose-Driven Life' is tht 'It's not about you.'...lol it take me some time to realise tht....i noe la harry, u would probably b saying..."took u long enough'.....yea well it takes some solid examples for me to realise tht...like steve irwin...i realise tht our purpose is to contribute in one way or another to the people or animals around us...in my point of view...i think we hav different purpose for everyone we meet...bcos i came across a quote mayb about a week ago...it goes like this..."Think you will not have a impact in this world? Too late. There are people whom you meet who would never be the same again, for better or for worse, after meeting and knowing you."....this quote..to me..kinda highlights my understanding of..well..at least my purpose...my purpose is you...the people around me...for now tht is my purpose...and when im bcome more powerful...not like superman powerful..haha...but like hav more power to make a difference...i will expand this purpose...bcos its probably us tht is going to hav to definie wad our purposes are in this world...well so much abt me talking abt such noble stuffs....for now im just a student living in a world full of complications, challenges and questions....but what is a world without these 3? heaven?...

DanieL counted snowflakes at 10:22 PM