Chronicles of a Young College Boy

Sunday, November 05, 2006

heh..let me start with saying this is the most american-college weekend i had every had since i come here...i go to 2 parties this weekend..one on friday night and one just now...well on both occasions its pretty luck i didnt drink any alcohol...i kinda had enough alcohol at the start of the semester when i got kinda drunk...so i don think i really want to risk it again becos tmr i got quite a lot of work to do....so well the friday's party wasnt wild...BUUT the one i just came back from...geezuz its so freaking wild...bcos its about haf of our tkd club in the party...so we all hav a drinking game...well not me...they hav a drinking game...all in all....they drink 15 rounds....its just hilarious to watch them do stuffs during the game when they r partly drunk...wads even more priceless is tht my tkd master is also playing (hes 21)....so after a while he got drunk and got reaaallllyyy loud...the whole apartment was just so noisy...he is just dancing away when there is no music at all...wads so annoying is tht i forgot to bring my camera to take all the picts...maaan if i hav my camera...next week's post is going to b like full of my master there making a complete fool of himself....

last week i didnt get a chance to talk about something quite important....nowadays im realising about the importance of our 'why' in our lives....bcos sometimes when things get really hectic..u start to lose ur energy and become lost....then when u r in this particular position u suddenly become unfocus...thinking why am i doing this..thinking of very dumb things like why don i just give all this up...thinking that no one is actually going to benefit from this...all these dumb stuffs suddenly come creeping to u when u become mentally and spiritually lost...i noe bcos thts the position im in a few weeks ago...i bcome so busy tht suddenly in the midst of everything i ask myself.."wads the purpose of all these?...why do i hav to work this hard?...why don i just don give a fudge and play during the weekends like other college kids?"....i was lost and losing more and more energy as each day passed....even calls to my parents doesnt help me cheer up anymore...then i go to my source of wisdom...Stuart Tan...i posted the qst i asked him a few weeks ago...but im gonna write again...

Me: Hey Stuart,What do you do when at some point in life, things really get hectic and stressful, and you start asking yourself, "Is this all there is to life?"How do you break out of the hectic pattern?

Stuart: Well, Daniel,
That's really all there is to life. Without your pains and your problems, it's difficult to appreciate what you have when it isn't hectic. The most important question for you is, do you want life the way it is now, and do you want it to change? If you invested in something else and pushed youself beyond where you thought you could go, are you going to?
Stretching is an important concept here. Stretch yourself to strive for excellence. This will be a challenge to you, but I believe you will grow. Think of yourself as a piece of iron going through the molding process. You are under pressure - that's why you'll be a better blade!

When i read his reply...i started to see the spark in the middle of all the fog.... i realised tht wad im doing wrong is tht i keep on asking myself..."is this all there is to life?"....Stuart mentioned..."duh"...hahahaha..well not duh but yea its from wad he mentioned above la...wad he taught me is tht...yes...this is all there is to life...my job is not to whine about it and dream about a better day....my job is to make this hectic moments as enjoyable as i could...and as i enjoy myself during these moments...i will grow through challenges...failures...and successes...thts wad i learn from wad he said....the lesson is sometimes just so simple but yet so elusive...its just bcos sometimes all these hectic work and schedules form fog and mist tht u lose ur vision of purpose and values..this is the same as those scenarios u see on tv when a husband and father just got so busy with his work tht he forgot wads really important in his life...his wife and children....well in my case not so deep hahaha...just for now completing my bachelor's degree with gpa of 3.5 is quite a handful for me...heh and later ppl ask me if i already get girlfriend or not...-_-ll..damn i cant even maintain a respectable gpa for pete's sake...and im still pretty young...hehe so i got a loooonnngg way to go....=)

DanieL counted snowflakes at 12:03 AM