Chronicles of a Young College Boy

Saturday, June 21, 2008

heya...the past 2 weeks in the internship has been much better than the first week because i gained 2 friends....even though this week i clocked in at about 55 hours at work....its kinda nice because now i get to chat at work with my friends...not staring at the computer for 10 hours...

What if suddenly you see yourself as someone you never picture as? in other words, what if you realise you are not the person you think you are?...this internship has really revealed quite a bit about myself which im not exactly proud of...i learnt it through conversations with both my friends and family...i dont know how...but flaws which i thought i never had are revealed in a number of places...i think im going to use this entry to face those flaws...because i will definitely push it away if i only confront it through my thoughts...

Firstly, I realise I'm all-talk, no action....to a certain extent...this is the flaw that i cannot stand because i actually dislike people like tht...and now i find it in myself...some example are....Before internship i told my parents tht i can withstand whatever crap UBS will throw at me...now im not already quite stressed out over the work...and they are not even throwing crap at me...for some reason i made statements that i never think over properly....i feel both frustrated and guilt-ridden when i realise this...

Secondly, i realise that im not as confident and brave as i imagined myself as....i know I wont be the first person into a battlefield...but my responses to the couple of events in the past couple of weeks has been...well...downright pathetic...this is comparing to what the ideal me would do in a situation...for some reason i couldnt find the courage to do the right thing when the situation calls for it....

I think the word courage is something that shouldn't be thrown around easily...i mean motivational speakers inspire students to be brave...and during tht time i believe it wholeheartedly...but now i find tht its not as easy as it sounds...the thought pattern that happend very often in "advise sessions" with people like my parents are like.."What was i thinking? Why would i act like tht?"...the thing is...i know what are the right things....but when the situation calls for it...they are pushed aside and i complain complain and complain....hmm somethings are not right here...

I read something very useful last week..."Having a job you love doesn't give you a recipe to an easy life, it gives you a recip for an interesting life." this statement for me, hits home when im at a point of thinking if i chose the right major or not...its by andrew matthews and everyday for the past weeks i have been reading his book just to get more enlightenment....i mean the problem is, i actually read his books before...but only now its useful for me....

His book im reading now is called "Follow your heart"...i definitely recommend it to anyone who has a dilemma about where you are in life now...=)

DanieL counted snowflakes at 11:57 AM

About The Author

Name - Daniel_Widjaja
Age - 19

Ok this is me in a nutshell: reflective...hardworker...goofy humour...no sense of fashion(just common sense)...messy...hopeless romantic ;)...enthusiastic learner (depends on wad subject)...easygoing...loves family and friends...internet/msn addict...library bug...into fantasy stuffs...mugger...single-minded at times...AKLTG Alumni...can be kuku at certain subjects (fashion for example)...wahaha..ok thts however much i can describe me..my friends definitely hav more to add..be it good or bad...enjoy the visit in my blog !

Other Chapters of His Life

November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
October 2008
January 2009

Places He Frequents By

Supermanhomepage.com
The Superman Franchise/History Video
Superman Returns Full Trailer
akltg.com
NBA.com
Life Coaches Blog
Enlightenment.com
Slow Leadership.org
Anthony Robbins Motivational Video
Stuart Tan's Audio Programs
Marquette TKD Club
Crazy Martial Arts Videos
TED (Technology, Entertainment, Design)
Squidoo

His Companions

Harry
Jenny
Evelyn
Suang
1Peace05
Sam Shen
Eric
Eugenie
Stuart Tan
Evan
Celine
Tan Yong
Amanda
Wendrey
Gregory

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In This Life
Delta Goodrem

Wisdoms of Life

"Doing what you love is not a recipe for an easier life, it's a recipe for an interesting life." Andrew Matthews

Favorites

Basketball, Martial Arts, Personal Development, Smallville, Superman, Southpark, Authentic Asian food (pls no sweet and sour chicken wif fried rice..im starting to get sick of it), Snowing days (its beautiful =) ), Fantasy and medieval stories, Rasberry ice lemon tea (wahahaha..it replaced green tea here)

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