Saturday, June 07, 2008
huaaa such a looong time havent blogged....almost a year....o well what can I say...quite a bit have happened...i want to blog now because there are quite a bit of things that I think i should put in writing....well firstly...i'm currently working at UBS Wealth Management Research....and i have always thought it to be a dream come true if I ever had the chance to work at UBS due to its reputation and everything...
But now that I'm already working there full time as an intern...I started to re-think if I made the right choice...hear me out here because I'm not exactly complaining..but more of laying out my thoughts....ok firstly I'm more or less drilled like nuts there...and its so hard to not complain...because i can get so frustrated at times...What made me feel the worst is that last week before the internship starts...I was all-talk about bearing all the crap they can give me because I didn't go through the proper channels to get the internship....I was going "I will take whatever crap they can give me..." but now I really have to eat my words...because its getting tougher and tougher....and every time i have that devil coming up saying "It should be easier than this! why am i doing this?" I feel really guilty because usually tht devil wins...I know....call me a whiner or whatever...
I think another reason I don't reallt like the job (so far) is also because I don't have any friends in the office....so I can go for about 4 hours without opening my mouth at all....and that can seriously kill me...because as much as I love computers....i still love people more...
I'm reading books by Andrew Matthews these days, you know, just to get a hold of myself because the stuffs that he said are so true some times....for example....he said that each of us have our own rules about how the world should work and how ppl should act....like "he should appreciate me more!" or "he should have said sorry to me!"....all these rules..and then when people dont follow our rules....we get miserable...He said that we should have preferences instead of rules....so instead of saying " he should have said sorry to me!"..we should say "He could have said sorry to me, but i will feel ok even if he didn't!"...i think this makes sense...I'm now doing my best to apply that into my internship....my question to him is that what if I'm not enjoying my job now?...his answer (from the book) is
" If you cannot change your job, change your attitude and put in 100% into it. the losing side is yours because your boss will only lose a few dollars while you lose your enthusiasm, self-esteem, and a whole chunk of your life. Relax....life has a way of rewarding you if you put your best food forward." haha talk about an advice eh....now the hardest part (as always) is putting this knowledge into action...
I really want to use this weekend to reflect upon the things I have said and thought about regarding this internship....I realised ytd when i think it over that...I am not as wise and upright as I thought I am...in fact...this internship has revealed quite a number of flaws about myself...and frankly speaking..I'm not very pleased about how I'm doing right now... I kinda feel bad because my parents have to bear with me whining about how hard this job is....i wanna change for the better next week because it's a whole new week...and I now know what to expect about the job and my bosses...the hardest part is really changing my attitude regarding the job, because for now i'm still not looking forward to the job....what I need to do is change my attitude...to think of this experience as more of a learning journey rather than an internship....as much as I should for other parts of my life for that matter.... Wish me luck!
About The Author
Name - Daniel_Widjaja
Age - 19
Ok this is me in a nutshell: reflective...hardworker...goofy humour...no sense of fashion(just common sense)...messy...hopeless romantic ;)...enthusiastic learner (depends on wad subject)...easygoing...loves family and friends...internet/msn addict...library bug...into fantasy stuffs...mugger...single-minded at times...AKLTG Alumni...can be kuku at certain subjects (fashion for example)...wahaha..ok thts however much i can describe me..my friends definitely hav more to add..be it good or bad...enjoy the visit in my blog !
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The Superman Franchise/History Video
Superman Returns Full Trailer
akltg.com
NBA.com
Life Coaches Blog
Enlightenment.com
Slow Leadership.org
Anthony Robbins Motivational Video
Stuart Tan's Audio Programs
Marquette TKD Club
Crazy Martial Arts Videos
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Gregory
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